"Fear Leads To Anger. Anger Leads To Hate. Hate....Leads To A 12 Guage..."
" You can tell everybody 'bout the state I'm in,
But you won't catch me crying cos I can't win
I don't care anymore, I don't care anymore."
-Phil Collins, I Don't Care Anymore
I don’t know where I want to start with this. Last night I had something a little upsetting happen with Jenn (not in the love aspect really, but a friendship aspect). And today at work was just bad.
I suppose when all else fails, go in order…
Jenn IMed me last night. Said she wouldn’t be in work today. That’s fine. But then when I asked her what was wrong, she told me she just had a lot of crap hit and needed a personal day to resolve it. Well, I was worried about her. As a friend first and foremost (to say romantic feelings played no role though would be lying).
She told me she didn’t really want to say. I replied that’s fine. I was just worried with how she worded it. And told her she knows she can talk to me if she needs to. This is where I got irked.
She told me she was gonna keep to herself more in general because she didn’t want to upset Matt, who was already somewhat “upset” with me because she’s let him read the notes/poems we exchanged PRIOR to her meeting him
And when she says he’s a little upset, she’s really saying he’s jealous of me for no reason.
This just set me off inside for 2 reasons. 1.) It’s none of his frigg’n business what I wrote him prior to them dating or meeting. Nor would I ever be sorry for it. Anything I wrote AFTER they started most certainly did not address anything the previous ones did. I’m not that disrespectful. 2.) She’s give up friendship, totally letting it go to the wayside because of his reaction to those letters I wrote prior and he knows my feelings haven’t gone away (because she tells him they haven’t. This, despite being true, is unneeded since I don’t act on it).
If any relationship you’re in requires you to give up or let go a friendship, then it’s BAD relationship. Period. Friendship is something you treasure. And if your partner doesn’t see that, and you listen to them, then you’re not a good friend at all. I just don’t understand people who can think otherwise. It just is something so…revolting to me I don’t know how it gets to the part of one’s mine that says its okay…
Work really had me ticked. I got kicked out of my office without my “official” knowledge. I just came in to find all my office supplies, computer, everything moved upstairs to a small little table and space so inadequately suitable for what I have to so...
All in the name of the new glorified copy woman they hired. Yes, this woman who is making $15 an hour (as I heard anyways) is mainly just doing half of what I used to and getting paid a LOT more than me to do it. And she gets my office to boot.
I’ve only been there going on 4 years and know more about the job than her…
But I had to fight for the $9 I got. I found the whole thing extremely insulting.
Second thing is boss got ticked with me for something again his fault. Friday, he handed me a print out from a web page. I assume it’s something he printed out as he never told me the client gave it to him, or printed it or anything. He’s printed out stuff before form the internet just to make talking about it easier when he shows me. We discuss, do and I trash. Never an issue.
Well, I threw it away, since he said he would have the client deal with it. Well, I figure that was that and he never asked for anything back. Today, he asks for it back and gets mad when I told him I trashed it. He got mad, “Never trash a client’s papers!” I told him that he never told me it was the clients, that I just figured he himself printed it off the net as a easier reference.
No comment other than to tell me that, “No, it was his!”. Frigg’n ‘tard. I’m not a mind reader. I don’t know things unless he tells me and I’m not a mind reader. Nor do I intend to ask him every possible scenario for every little thing just to cover all possible tracks because he’s old enough that being an incompetent moron be an issue. Grow up and focus…
There were other things that ticked me off too, but those were issues that got taken out on everyone. Not me.
I suppose the saving grace was talking to Tara online today and a new friend I made from a chat room who I’m really enjoying time with. So that’s cool I guess. I haven’t had much time to read anymore of my book, but I’m hoping to tomorrow. We’ll see how that goes.
I did touch up a couple past entries. Forgot to add lyrics to them originally, so I went back and did so. All better. Also, got a few links people might like:
1.) Transformers: Which Optimus Prime is the greatest Prime? A great Versus match between all incarnations of Prime. Nicely done.
2.) Monty Python Vs Darth Vader: The Black Knight’s true Identity. That’s enough there. It’s funny as heck. Check it out.
I guess that’s it for now. Till later…
But you won't catch me crying cos I can't win
I don't care anymore, I don't care anymore."
-Phil Collins, I Don't Care Anymore
I don’t know where I want to start with this. Last night I had something a little upsetting happen with Jenn (not in the love aspect really, but a friendship aspect). And today at work was just bad.
I suppose when all else fails, go in order…
Jenn IMed me last night. Said she wouldn’t be in work today. That’s fine. But then when I asked her what was wrong, she told me she just had a lot of crap hit and needed a personal day to resolve it. Well, I was worried about her. As a friend first and foremost (to say romantic feelings played no role though would be lying).
She told me she didn’t really want to say. I replied that’s fine. I was just worried with how she worded it. And told her she knows she can talk to me if she needs to. This is where I got irked.
She told me she was gonna keep to herself more in general because she didn’t want to upset Matt, who was already somewhat “upset” with me because she’s let him read the notes/poems we exchanged PRIOR to her meeting him
And when she says he’s a little upset, she’s really saying he’s jealous of me for no reason.
This just set me off inside for 2 reasons. 1.) It’s none of his frigg’n business what I wrote him prior to them dating or meeting. Nor would I ever be sorry for it. Anything I wrote AFTER they started most certainly did not address anything the previous ones did. I’m not that disrespectful. 2.) She’s give up friendship, totally letting it go to the wayside because of his reaction to those letters I wrote prior and he knows my feelings haven’t gone away (because she tells him they haven’t. This, despite being true, is unneeded since I don’t act on it).
If any relationship you’re in requires you to give up or let go a friendship, then it’s BAD relationship. Period. Friendship is something you treasure. And if your partner doesn’t see that, and you listen to them, then you’re not a good friend at all. I just don’t understand people who can think otherwise. It just is something so…revolting to me I don’t know how it gets to the part of one’s mine that says its okay…
Work really had me ticked. I got kicked out of my office without my “official” knowledge. I just came in to find all my office supplies, computer, everything moved upstairs to a small little table and space so inadequately suitable for what I have to so...
All in the name of the new glorified copy woman they hired. Yes, this woman who is making $15 an hour (as I heard anyways) is mainly just doing half of what I used to and getting paid a LOT more than me to do it. And she gets my office to boot.
I’ve only been there going on 4 years and know more about the job than her…
But I had to fight for the $9 I got. I found the whole thing extremely insulting.
Second thing is boss got ticked with me for something again his fault. Friday, he handed me a print out from a web page. I assume it’s something he printed out as he never told me the client gave it to him, or printed it or anything. He’s printed out stuff before form the internet just to make talking about it easier when he shows me. We discuss, do and I trash. Never an issue.
Well, I threw it away, since he said he would have the client deal with it. Well, I figure that was that and he never asked for anything back. Today, he asks for it back and gets mad when I told him I trashed it. He got mad, “Never trash a client’s papers!” I told him that he never told me it was the clients, that I just figured he himself printed it off the net as a easier reference.
No comment other than to tell me that, “No, it was his!”. Frigg’n ‘tard. I’m not a mind reader. I don’t know things unless he tells me and I’m not a mind reader. Nor do I intend to ask him every possible scenario for every little thing just to cover all possible tracks because he’s old enough that being an incompetent moron be an issue. Grow up and focus…
There were other things that ticked me off too, but those were issues that got taken out on everyone. Not me.
I suppose the saving grace was talking to Tara online today and a new friend I made from a chat room who I’m really enjoying time with. So that’s cool I guess. I haven’t had much time to read anymore of my book, but I’m hoping to tomorrow. We’ll see how that goes.
I did touch up a couple past entries. Forgot to add lyrics to them originally, so I went back and did so. All better. Also, got a few links people might like:
1.) Transformers: Which Optimus Prime is the greatest Prime? A great Versus match between all incarnations of Prime. Nicely done.
2.) Monty Python Vs Darth Vader: The Black Knight’s true Identity. That’s enough there. It’s funny as heck. Check it out.
I guess that’s it for now. Till later…