i see the way out and i'm gonna take it?

[cardboardsmiles]

hmm
it's true
sometimes i DON'T know things
life's crazy like that

and SOMETIMES i do know things
of course
eeeeeeeeeeveryone knows something

but really...really really really..i don't know much of anything
and it seriously angers me more than anything

i mean..yes..i have my redeeming qualities
uh duh
but i just wanna have that one BIG thing that makes me interesting
i.e. speaking french, knowing crazy facts, getting good grades, or even swimming
i just don't HAVE that one thing i'm good at
i'm not even good at the easy stuff
like...remembering things or being a good listener person
i can't even work hard enough to receive good grades
what kind of person does that make me?
i'm a lazy ssss ooo bbb
and i just don't know when that happened
and i just don't know why i didn't SEE it happening
getting good grades ISN'T EVEN HARD
i'm not dumb..boy..i'm really not..
but how is ANYONE else supposed to know that?

i just...i just feel like such a piece of shit sometimes
because i can't contribute anything to...anything

i don't even know why people like me sometimes
as friends or more
i'm not especially ANYTHING
i have the LOUDEST laugh..it's not even CONSISTENT with itself
i mean..honestly how hard is it to just have ONE laugh??
ugh..i'm hopeless
absolutely hopeless

as conceited as this may sound
i think i'm lucky i grew out of my awkward ugly stage
my friends wouldn't even BE my friends if i hadn't
i know..i know..that's not giving my friends a whole lot of credit
but...sometimes..i just wonderrrrrr

what am i saying..
i've got great friends
that's about ALL i got going for me sometimes
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

ay yi yi. how EMO can you become in one night?!!?!!?!??!?!?!?

i've seen the movie THE HOLIDAY twice
i just adore jack black and jude law
not cameron though or kate