i remember a week without and i felt lost
I feel like within the past few days, maybe the past week, so much has changed. Now, this may just be in my head..actually..chances are it is (cuz as of lately, i feel absolutely senile), but still, I wouldn't feel so different if nothing has changed. Right? I guess I could be feeling this way for a plethora of reasons. Chris leaving, the demise of my relationship with Max (for good..), my growing closeness with Zoe, and the up and comingness of college are all good reasons. I know for a fact that those aren't just it though because there are some things happening in my life right now that I don't feel I can discuss with anyone other than Megan, even if I really want to tell everyone in the whole entire wooooooooooooorld.
With all these new found feelings, I think I've gained a slightly new perspective on life. At least on MY life...I guess not on like...life as a whole..I'm not THAT deep. And I'm like eff philosophy for real. Anyway, I think that this whole college thing is either gonna be really good for Sam McDonald or really bad for her. Like..I don't know. I guess I'm excited, ya know? But there's so much I feel like I'm gonna miss out on by leaving. Sometimes I get really angry with myself for making such good friends out of the "sophomore girls" because I'm just going to leave them in the fall. I don't want to have to make new friends. Ugh.
2005 seems so long ago now. God. I've changed so much.
Thinking about college just makes me so like...sad. I don't want to finish high school so soon. I don't want to leave everyone in Fort Wayne. I've seriously met the most amazing people here. A few of them I guarantee I will not EVER forget..even if right now we're not really...on THAT level..if that makes any0 sense.
It's so hard to forget the way some people used to make you feel.
With all these new found feelings, I think I've gained a slightly new perspective on life. At least on MY life...I guess not on like...life as a whole..I'm not THAT deep. And I'm like eff philosophy for real. Anyway, I think that this whole college thing is either gonna be really good for Sam McDonald or really bad for her. Like..I don't know. I guess I'm excited, ya know? But there's so much I feel like I'm gonna miss out on by leaving. Sometimes I get really angry with myself for making such good friends out of the "sophomore girls" because I'm just going to leave them in the fall. I don't want to have to make new friends. Ugh.
2005 seems so long ago now. God. I've changed so much.
Thinking about college just makes me so like...sad. I don't want to finish high school so soon. I don't want to leave everyone in Fort Wayne. I've seriously met the most amazing people here. A few of them I guarantee I will not EVER forget..even if right now we're not really...on THAT level..if that makes any0 sense.
It's so hard to forget the way some people used to make you feel.