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[cardboardhearts]

im ready to be happy again

i talked to my dad again tonight
he sounds a little better
im still worried
and i wish i could be there with him
i cant keep my mind off of how much he is going through
i almost feel guilty everytime i smile or laugh cause i know how hard it is for him right now

last night i had a dream about my dad
but it wasnt a dream
it was kind of memories of him just replaying in my mind
it was nice
i woke up crying
but crying cause i was happy
i think this whole thing will make us closer
it just makes me realize how much i love him and miss him
im so proud of him
i envy his modivation and strength

i love you daddy