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no, i don't feel okay.
11:11, make a wish.
i don't know how to place this.
i'm half stuck between you and me.
no, i'm not okay with you flying out to nevada to see your ex-girlfriend.
you told me that now it's because she wants to get back together with you.
was this the original reason? or did you really just find out?
i can't make heads or tails of this.
are you serious?
i feel like the trust is slipping.
you're making me feel like i can't trust you.
i don't know how to get back to where i know i'm supposed to be.
i get really hot whenever i think about this.
my palms start sweating.
my heart beats faster.
god, i'm so nervous.
i'm really fucking scared.
can't eat, can't sleep, can't speak.
my head wants to place you with everyone else who has fucked with me.
my heart knows that's not right.
my body just aches.
i can't tell if it's because i only feel okay when i'm next to you,
because i miss you, or just because i'm worrying so much.
i push this out when i'm with you,
i want to see you smile.
i want to hear you laugh.
i want to feel you squeeze.
i'm not sure.
but i know this isn't good.
and i feel that i need to prepare for the worst.
and i can only do that by pushing you away.
but that's really fucking hard when i want you as close as possible.
11:11, make a wish.
i don't know how to place this.
i'm half stuck between you and me.
no, i'm not okay with you flying out to nevada to see your ex-girlfriend.
you told me that now it's because she wants to get back together with you.
was this the original reason? or did you really just find out?
i can't make heads or tails of this.
are you serious?
i feel like the trust is slipping.
you're making me feel like i can't trust you.
i don't know how to get back to where i know i'm supposed to be.
i get really hot whenever i think about this.
my palms start sweating.
my heart beats faster.
god, i'm so nervous.
i'm really fucking scared.
can't eat, can't sleep, can't speak.
my head wants to place you with everyone else who has fucked with me.
my heart knows that's not right.
my body just aches.
i can't tell if it's because i only feel okay when i'm next to you,
because i miss you, or just because i'm worrying so much.
i push this out when i'm with you,
i want to see you smile.
i want to hear you laugh.
i want to feel you squeeze.
i'm not sure.
but i know this isn't good.
and i feel that i need to prepare for the worst.
and i can only do that by pushing you away.
but that's really fucking hard when i want you as close as possible.