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[carcrashlove___]

i got ripped apart while you were gone.
you were gone.
i was gone.
there are too many other people,
for the both of us.

i dont mean for everyone to be around me.
you're the only person ive ever looked for in my life.
you're the only hand ive tried to hold,
and sometimes i don't get it.

there's a lot that you get angry about that gets blown up, i think.
honestly, i'll tell you what i did and did not say.
i think you'd be surprised.
and on top of it, most of the time i don't know you're angry.
i can't fix it or explain myself if you don't give me the chance.

maybe it'll be better this way.
you need to be somewhere where people know you as the person you want them to know you as.
you need people who don't know who you are.
we all know you.
it just sucks that i had to hear it from four other people but not from you.

just give me a hug before you leave.
please.