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[carcrashlove___]

im sick of the way everything changes.
im sick of the way everyone is changing.
i dont like the way you act,
i dont like the people you hang out with,
i dont like the way you hit on me.
i like the way you look at me,
i like the way you hold me,
i like the way you smile at me.
im tired of being so angry at everything.
im tired in general.
i want to make this go away,
i want to see you again,
i want to kiss you even though i barely know you.
i dont want to be friends with you anymore,
i dont want you to be happy,
i dont want to be left alone.
i think i would feel better if i was with you.
i think i would feel better if i didnt feel at all.
i wish i had the courage to tell you what i thought about you,
i wish i could just hold your hand,
i wish everything was easy and done.
i think if i could, i would change 98% of what i have in my life right now.
im so happy i am meeting new people,
im so happy that i feel like i am finally moving on,
ive been happier lately now that i go to youth group.
and no, im not a jesus kid now.
i like the people,
i like how even though i dont know them,
and even though i might be a little nervous and quiet.
i feel completely comfortable.
i like the way he talked to me randomly.
i like the way we played crab soccer.
i like the way she talks to me.
i think my life is ending.
the person i used to be is disappearing,
and something new is coming.
"our attitude towards life determines lifes attitude towards us."
watch out world,
im tired of your garbage.