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thursday morning english class.
Livejournaling@school
Probably isn’t as difficult as I think.
I haven’t livejournaled in a long time,
Ahem, excuse me.
I haven’t LJed in a long time.
I am supposed to be working on this mondo project that isn’t due until Wednesday, but when I saw mondo project, I MEAN MONDO PROJECT. Especially since I didn’t read the book. Does it look like im working ms. Bond? Because im not :D at first I was playing tetris, but this alex guilt tripped me into stopping. So instead I looked at LOLCATS.
Oh hai :D
I see a jimmy bohnslav across the room.
Hai jimmy :D
My tummy hurts a little. My hair is very bouncy and curly today. I woke up this morning and my opinion of straightening it was as follows. (In the words of heather)
Me: “eehh, NOT.”
I am wearing teal/brown. My shoes used to be white-ish. Now they are just drrrrty.
I wonder if Jessica was late this morning. Ill text her later and get the info :D
Alex is trying to look like she is working, looking through the book and stuff. Actually typing things. I mean, who does work anymore in school anyways. I don’t know if im going to youth group with tim tonight. I have an ap test AND a math test. Garbage. School is kicking my butt. Mary is going tonight.
For some reason, I just don’t like them hanging out with mary so much.
I love mary to death, don’t get me wrong. And I love that she is hanging out with us. It just feels weird. It feels weird to have all four of us together, and then have someone else who just isn’t… us?
Ill get used to it. She really is a lot of fun. I enjoy being around her a lot.
I just need to suck it up.
Livejournal livejournal, what you gona do?
What you go do when they come for you,
Livejournal livejournal.
Tim said eric said that he was just jealouse about a lot of things.
And I hope it wasn’t me because really, we aren’t dating and I know he likes me and everything. But I cant be expected not to have fun when he is around just because he gets jealouse about little stuff. I mean, Saturday night I can understand. I understand that completely. But given the circumstances, I don’t know what he would expect. I told him what I thought and how I felt. And he said okay and now look where we are. He calls me and im just like. Angry mood switch on.
D: I don’t know where to go from here.
So last night was like.
A “well never get back together” sandwich topped with “P.S. I don’t love you anymore.”
Shrug, I guess its good for me.
That is gona help me move on away from the past and the memories. I don’t even think about it anymore. And if I do, I get angry. But its not my place and I know it isn’t. so really, there isn’t a point to even being angry. I put away all his things, I don’t wear his clothes anymore, im working on it.
I haven’t deleted his texts off my phone, but I feel like if I did a huge weight would be lifted. I just don’t want to lose those you know? Its nice to know that someone loved me the way he loved me.
But I know I deserve better than what he gave me. Same for him.
Ill always love him,
I just have to learn not to let it hurt me anymore.
Computers are being put up now.
Bai :D
Livejournaling@school
Probably isn’t as difficult as I think.
I haven’t livejournaled in a long time,
Ahem, excuse me.
I haven’t LJed in a long time.
I am supposed to be working on this mondo project that isn’t due until Wednesday, but when I saw mondo project, I MEAN MONDO PROJECT. Especially since I didn’t read the book. Does it look like im working ms. Bond? Because im not :D at first I was playing tetris, but this alex guilt tripped me into stopping. So instead I looked at LOLCATS.
Oh hai :D
I see a jimmy bohnslav across the room.
Hai jimmy :D
My tummy hurts a little. My hair is very bouncy and curly today. I woke up this morning and my opinion of straightening it was as follows. (In the words of heather)
Me: “eehh, NOT.”
I am wearing teal/brown. My shoes used to be white-ish. Now they are just drrrrty.
I wonder if Jessica was late this morning. Ill text her later and get the info :D
Alex is trying to look like she is working, looking through the book and stuff. Actually typing things. I mean, who does work anymore in school anyways. I don’t know if im going to youth group with tim tonight. I have an ap test AND a math test. Garbage. School is kicking my butt. Mary is going tonight.
For some reason, I just don’t like them hanging out with mary so much.
I love mary to death, don’t get me wrong. And I love that she is hanging out with us. It just feels weird. It feels weird to have all four of us together, and then have someone else who just isn’t… us?
Ill get used to it. She really is a lot of fun. I enjoy being around her a lot.
I just need to suck it up.
Livejournal livejournal, what you gona do?
What you go do when they come for you,
Livejournal livejournal.
Tim said eric said that he was just jealouse about a lot of things.
And I hope it wasn’t me because really, we aren’t dating and I know he likes me and everything. But I cant be expected not to have fun when he is around just because he gets jealouse about little stuff. I mean, Saturday night I can understand. I understand that completely. But given the circumstances, I don’t know what he would expect. I told him what I thought and how I felt. And he said okay and now look where we are. He calls me and im just like. Angry mood switch on.
D: I don’t know where to go from here.
So last night was like.
A “well never get back together” sandwich topped with “P.S. I don’t love you anymore.”
Shrug, I guess its good for me.
That is gona help me move on away from the past and the memories. I don’t even think about it anymore. And if I do, I get angry. But its not my place and I know it isn’t. so really, there isn’t a point to even being angry. I put away all his things, I don’t wear his clothes anymore, im working on it.
I haven’t deleted his texts off my phone, but I feel like if I did a huge weight would be lifted. I just don’t want to lose those you know? Its nice to know that someone loved me the way he loved me.
But I know I deserve better than what he gave me. Same for him.
Ill always love him,
I just have to learn not to let it hurt me anymore.
Computers are being put up now.
Bai :D