ugh

Feb 08, 2005 21:41

another bad day
my puppy hates me and don once again is trying to steal a dog
he got skeezer...which is why i hate skeezer now
and he almost had jake...

but hten jake died and he couldnt complete the process

god i hate don sometimes so much
and i try sooooooo fucking hard to not let him piss me off ....

and i try sooo hard to not hate him

but i cant seem to do it
ugh

i hate this in general
this has been such a hard week
i have cried like twenty times today

physical therapy is killing me

my friends are being exclusive and obnoxious towards me

another one i have probably scarred for life

i have been counting my scars ....which is stupid cause it makes me worse

im scared to death about college

i had to go to two different superbowl parties that were literally across the street and katy and i were the only ones who crossed the street

i am just too fucking depressed right now
and all i want is to be happy

what would make me happy is to off of this stupid crutch

then atleast i could enjoy what this surgeyr has done for me....and i could drive....
and i could just have so much more energy

right now getting up to turn off the light or to close the door
or just to get a drink of water... it is just such a task for me and wears me out

i mean to go and see my friends makes me exhausted beyond belief and i have to like rest up for it

i just want to cry right now

this is prob because its that time of the month...

but all that has done is broken up my mask and my stability

because all of this is factual and not exagerrated....from what i can tell

so i am doen whining now
i am gonna go to bed and dream of better things...

you dont understand how i have been looking forward to going to sleep all the time now....for like the past month

now that i am able to sleep that is...no more insomnia for me!! thank god

ok i really have to go right now
carcar
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