now is not the time
Damn it.
No need to break my heart. I did not tell you to like me back. I did not even tell you I like you. I'd rather you be 'manhid' than rude.
I return your "ANO MAN YAN?!" with a "WHAT. AN. ASS."
To think I believe you have grown. To think I believed you have given up your crappy attitude. To think I liked you.
I am stupid.
I have to congratulate you though. You finally fulfilled my life long dream for me. I like nobody! No more, thank you. I've given up because I've had it with the shit I receive from people I want to be closer to. I've had it with watching from the distance. I've had it with knowing people I like already like somebody else.
I am sick and tired of giving. I am sick and tired of receiving things I do not deserve. I'm sick and tired of high school. Screw my nature. Screw. Screw that 'dream' I had with you in it. Screw that dream because I was supposed to be liking someone else than you.
I'm also lucky I had it though, because if I did not, I wouldn't be liking you, and I wouldn't be realizing how much pain ALL of you put me through. I guess all I needed was an eye opener. And thanks for being it.
I like no one.
I am EXTREMELY happy. I am finally FREE, free from all forms of heartbreak. Just need to fix this, and I'm all set. I've finally escaped.
So I don't f*c*ing care anymore if you found out. I have no problem with anybody finding out about my past. So thanks for that one moment in my life when I actually believed you are a potential... crush. Thanks for that one moment that made me open my eyes and making me realize how much I hate 'feelers'. Thank you because I do not have to fear the possibility of you liking someone else. Thank every single guy I liked for making me realize: NOW IS NOT THE TIME.
.:joy to the world:.
No need to break my heart. I did not tell you to like me back. I did not even tell you I like you. I'd rather you be 'manhid' than rude.
I return your "ANO MAN YAN?!" with a "WHAT. AN. ASS."
To think I believe you have grown. To think I believed you have given up your crappy attitude. To think I liked you.
I am stupid.
I have to congratulate you though. You finally fulfilled my life long dream for me. I like nobody! No more, thank you. I've given up because I've had it with the shit I receive from people I want to be closer to. I've had it with watching from the distance. I've had it with knowing people I like already like somebody else.
I am sick and tired of giving. I am sick and tired of receiving things I do not deserve. I'm sick and tired of high school. Screw my nature. Screw. Screw that 'dream' I had with you in it. Screw that dream because I was supposed to be liking someone else than you.
I'm also lucky I had it though, because if I did not, I wouldn't be liking you, and I wouldn't be realizing how much pain ALL of you put me through. I guess all I needed was an eye opener. And thanks for being it.
I like no one.
I am EXTREMELY happy. I am finally FREE, free from all forms of heartbreak. Just need to fix this, and I'm all set. I've finally escaped.
So I don't f*c*ing care anymore if you found out. I have no problem with anybody finding out about my past. So thanks for that one moment in my life when I actually believed you are a potential... crush. Thanks for that one moment that made me open my eyes and making me realize how much I hate 'feelers'. Thank you because I do not have to fear the possibility of you liking someone else. Thank every single guy I liked for making me realize: NOW IS NOT THE TIME.
.:joy to the world:.