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God. I don't know what to do.
I was accepted as a transfer to Carleton and after talking with my parents for the past two weeks, I decided that the finances are too great. But now, my parents are saying that they'll figure a way around the costs and send me there. They don't want me to pass up this opportunity.
I don't want to pass it up either, but at the same time, how can I ask them to pay that much for my education? Tuition is a ridiculous amount and I would feel utterly guilty if they paid it on my behalf. I had already psyched myself up for staying at madison for the next three years and now my parents are giving me the choice.
I just don't want to regret. I don't want to regret passing up an opportunity to study at a place where I know I would be happy. Life only happens once; I don't want the next three years to be nothing more than working to get into grad school. But at the same time, I don't want to regret the financial burden I'd be placing on my family. What if something were to happen and they needed the money? Their plans have always counted on state tuition for my brothers and myself, what if this sends everything into chaos.
I don't know what to do.
I was accepted as a transfer to Carleton and after talking with my parents for the past two weeks, I decided that the finances are too great. But now, my parents are saying that they'll figure a way around the costs and send me there. They don't want me to pass up this opportunity.
I don't want to pass it up either, but at the same time, how can I ask them to pay that much for my education? Tuition is a ridiculous amount and I would feel utterly guilty if they paid it on my behalf. I had already psyched myself up for staying at madison for the next three years and now my parents are giving me the choice.
I just don't want to regret. I don't want to regret passing up an opportunity to study at a place where I know I would be happy. Life only happens once; I don't want the next three years to be nothing more than working to get into grad school. But at the same time, I don't want to regret the financial burden I'd be placing on my family. What if something were to happen and they needed the money? Their plans have always counted on state tuition for my brothers and myself, what if this sends everything into chaos.
I don't know what to do.