breaks lead to overanalysis
so i am not going to rome this summer anymore. i am going to prague with denise. i decided to pick up a minor in the european union and i have to either go to brussels, salzburg, or prague. prague is good since i am czechoslovakian. yes i know the country split up. and the part that my grandparents are from is now in the ukrain. but about an hour from prague. so i refer to myself as czech. lindsay was like i thought you were italian and jewish. bc apparently jewish is a state now. so i am excited about that, it is about $2000 cheaper than rome too. and i will go on the Gift of Discovery trip next summer, i didn't get my act together in time to go this summer, so Italy summer 2006. not too mention i am still going to israel with some sisters, so this summer will be interesting. i am thinking about taking classes summer a too. finally decided i don't want to be stuck in this place for the rest of my life. once break is over i am going to be working at Napolatanos. I only have class on tuesdays and thursdays, so hopefully i will be making a ton of money. to save for prague and the new truck!!! and i am sick of not shopping, i really want to shop again. so this whole max thing is driving me crazy. we were supposed to see each other this weekend but ofcourse it didn't work out. we never even see each other or talk anymore and he is stil in florida. he is finishing up right now, so he is really busy. and then he has a couple of months so we will get to see each other alot, but then it is off to oklahoma. so when exactly are we going to see each other then? i am starting to really not see the point in doing this. i mean i am only 20 years old i shouldn't be dealing with this shit. apparently i am not meant to ever have a normal relationship ever. so changing the subject when do people actually change? i mean how many times does someone say they are going to change, and then they just don't do it. i mean how many times have i said i was going to change something and not done it. what does it really take to make someone change? i'd like to find out. and i am trying to change some things, we will see if it happens. i am supposed to go out tonight but i am not really in the mood. i have a headache and my stomach kinda hurts cause i took a nap. weird how that always happens. besides i just kinda want to rest during the break. and i am going out tomorrow night. i feel that is good enough. i also don't need to keep spending so much money on alcohol and late night eating. and there is a party tomorrow night. alright i think maybe i am done now and i am going to watch a movie or something.