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I've had a weird week.
I was talking with my mom today, and said something about a fight we'd had. She got this weird look on her face. To make a long story short, it turns out that while I use 'fight' in a general sense - covering everything from minor disagreements, heated discussions and out and out brawls - mom only counts the latter as a fight, and uses very specific terms. So every time I come to her house and say that Matt and I had a fight, she pictures something with hair pulling or verbal barbs, when I really mean disagreement over the money.
Hence, why shes been telling me to leave him for the past two years.
Matt just stormed off again as I was writing this. Hes doing a lot of work on the computers up at the school lately, and a lot of it has been very frustrating. He tends to deal with this by throwing things, or hitting the desk. I have tried to explain to him before what that does to my brain, but either he isn't listening or he can't find another way to deal with it, because he hasn't stopped. After about the third time I screamed at him, (Adrenaline does weird things to a person) and now I feel kinda bad. But also pretty justified, since I have talked to him about this before, and even mentioned it pretty recently.
You shouldn't have to feel scared in your own house.
He's handling it pretty well. He left the install alone and went to go read. So now I have to kick him out of the bedroom when I want to go to sleep, which will be soon. We were up till 2 on Monday installing user profiles, and now my clock is all wonky.
I feel like I need to write but I'm too tired. Maybe I'll work on it tomorrow. I've been putting it off for days. Don't know why. I used to love writing in these things.
And Carl, if you see this, I have like 3 of your diaries, and no updates. =(
I was talking with my mom today, and said something about a fight we'd had. She got this weird look on her face. To make a long story short, it turns out that while I use 'fight' in a general sense - covering everything from minor disagreements, heated discussions and out and out brawls - mom only counts the latter as a fight, and uses very specific terms. So every time I come to her house and say that Matt and I had a fight, she pictures something with hair pulling or verbal barbs, when I really mean disagreement over the money.
Hence, why shes been telling me to leave him for the past two years.
Matt just stormed off again as I was writing this. Hes doing a lot of work on the computers up at the school lately, and a lot of it has been very frustrating. He tends to deal with this by throwing things, or hitting the desk. I have tried to explain to him before what that does to my brain, but either he isn't listening or he can't find another way to deal with it, because he hasn't stopped. After about the third time I screamed at him, (Adrenaline does weird things to a person) and now I feel kinda bad. But also pretty justified, since I have talked to him about this before, and even mentioned it pretty recently.
You shouldn't have to feel scared in your own house.
He's handling it pretty well. He left the install alone and went to go read. So now I have to kick him out of the bedroom when I want to go to sleep, which will be soon. We were up till 2 on Monday installing user profiles, and now my clock is all wonky.
I feel like I need to write but I'm too tired. Maybe I'll work on it tomorrow. I've been putting it off for days. Don't know why. I used to love writing in these things.
And Carl, if you see this, I have like 3 of your diaries, and no updates. =(