every day
everyday i sit here with something to do some times with out much to do ... i ahve friends... i have family... i have God what else could i ask for... i am not asking for it ... i jsut wnat it... a nice guy... like the one i had for just a lil wile... one that knows how i think and feel... and knows just what to say to make me laugh ... and never knows how to make me cry.. b/c he never has mad me cry... its been a long time sence i have cryed... maybe to long.... not even ters of joy... or sadness... eather one i would be greatfull for... some times people think i am funny i dont see it.. at all ... i think i jsut say what i am thinking when i think it... right now i cant say what i am thinking but i shure can type it... what if i fail and am a freshman again.. kris wont want to be here in hattly again... neather will i ... why do people try to hook me up with these guys that seem to be nice guys and really nice looking... but they dont ahve the personality .... not the one i am looking for anyways... and when i find it ... he never sticks around.... or i break up with him before we ever get the chance to know eachother... u know me and a friend counted up the other day how many rebound guys i have had and its like up to 9... and i have only had 5 or 6 boyfrineds.. i guess thats me for ya ... some times i wonder why i dont jsut date one of those guys my friends are tyring to set me up with .. but then i jsut think i dont wnat to hurt them .. so i dont .... lol wow this is a long one ... i cant live my life afread of hurting... so i think i am going to just go for it whe God says its time .... and all is well with in my soal...