In-between place... Alcoholic?Afro-latin?Anorexic?
I've never really been a person that is jus one thing or been constantly one aspect my whole life. I mean I cud be all of these things?[title]
I had Cider-soup for breakfast this morning[Cider in a bowl!!! I'm not weird, I was bored!!!]LOL!!I'm drinking cider rite now...mmmm.
I pride myself on being Afro-Caribbean before any of my other heritages
Yet i can't talk any other language but English not patois, not Creole , not even spanish
And i don't really think I cud possibly have an anorexic relapse , i haven't had the drive or been in the 100s since i was 15. Truth be told i think I'm too afrocentric to be doin this any longer..it's goes against what i believe in. And I don't want to live a lie, live something that contradicts what i stand for, I'm gonna try to accept myself like i been trying to do in this past year. I mite even get help if I have to, I don't want to live a life of feeling fat wen i eat, not knowing what i see in the mirror, comparing myself to others, feeling this raging self hate that i feel everyday of my life.
I think that for once in my whole entire life. I want to be normal
Which is a major thing for me to say!
This is going to be a struggle but I think I need to let this go.
OH! and my alltime favorite Jackson5 vid
The dancing is just so perfect-jus right
CHECK OUT HOW FLY THEIR ROBOT IS!!!
Oh man, I don't wanna admit this but i think i mite be like um almost falling for marcus2....kinda-ish
I DUNNO WHY?? he's jus...uh i dunno??
He's a player, I'm a player I cant be dealing like this
Maybe it's all in my mind?? hm...I am drunk rite know so...ah, I gott an' excuse
Anywayz I'm gonna finish ma drink Laterz
Peace.x
I had Cider-soup for breakfast this morning[Cider in a bowl!!! I'm not weird, I was bored!!!]LOL!!I'm drinking cider rite now...mmmm.
I pride myself on being Afro-Caribbean before any of my other heritages
Yet i can't talk any other language but English not patois, not Creole , not even spanish
And i don't really think I cud possibly have an anorexic relapse , i haven't had the drive or been in the 100s since i was 15. Truth be told i think I'm too afrocentric to be doin this any longer..it's goes against what i believe in. And I don't want to live a lie, live something that contradicts what i stand for, I'm gonna try to accept myself like i been trying to do in this past year. I mite even get help if I have to, I don't want to live a life of feeling fat wen i eat, not knowing what i see in the mirror, comparing myself to others, feeling this raging self hate that i feel everyday of my life.
I think that for once in my whole entire life. I want to be normal
Which is a major thing for me to say!
This is going to be a struggle but I think I need to let this go.
OH! and my alltime favorite Jackson5 vid
The dancing is just so perfect-jus right
CHECK OUT HOW FLY THEIR ROBOT IS!!!
Click to viewOh man, I don't wanna admit this but i think i mite be like um almost falling for marcus2....kinda-ish
I DUNNO WHY?? he's jus...uh i dunno??
He's a player, I'm a player I cant be dealing like this
Maybe it's all in my mind?? hm...I am drunk rite know so...ah, I gott an' excuse
Anywayz I'm gonna finish ma drink Laterz
Peace.x