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so heres the sober version of last night. i went home with cassey and nick and then to casseys for some DDR (it was amazing). then i went over to paulas a little later where i met cassey and we chilled with paula who had to stay home because of the SAT 2. we came back to my house to get dressed and we walked in and bernard was sitting in my living room talking to my mom (it was kinda scary, i wont lie, lol). nick came over about 2 seconds later and we all went upstairs where cassey and i got dressed and bernard and nick talked. cassey and i went to regis dance and left bernard and nick in a hurry while they were still at my house. we met mary and maria, lol and chilled mostly with keats, luiz, and others. it ended and we went to pats where i got drunk with luiz and we saw deckland and mike and kerin and tom and others. i left and came home and i called ross drunk and it was bad. i felt stupid and then it occured to me that we werent going out and i dont even know what i said to him. berand came over for a little when i was home and we chilled.
ross and i talked yesterday and we agreed to be friends and like not be akward around each other and maybe after time apart we will get back together. im glad we are keeping it that way. i mean i would rather be going out but this ways good too, if i cant be with him i still want to be friends with him. last night i was still really sad about it all and i still am today, im just trying not to think about it. whatever happens will happen and as keats told me, everything happens for a reason, but no matter what i will always love him. i know that.
ross and i talked yesterday and we agreed to be friends and like not be akward around each other and maybe after time apart we will get back together. im glad we are keeping it that way. i mean i would rather be going out but this ways good too, if i cant be with him i still want to be friends with him. last night i was still really sad about it all and i still am today, im just trying not to think about it. whatever happens will happen and as keats told me, everything happens for a reason, but no matter what i will always love him. i know that.