The sun suffocates beyond darkened skies
Well I've pretty much exhausted all my options to overcome this immense boredom and the only thing left to do is update livejournal!
Well, my life's been quite a kerazy mind-fuck these past few months, and I've been a bit down recently coz of work and shit. They're working me far too hard and it's really sapped any kind of enthusiasm for life out of me. It seems I'm either exhausted, stressed or bored all the time! They owe me almost 32 hours now in overtime I've put in, which is totally mental. I'm probably gonna take the money rather than the days off though, coz I can't really afford not to :/
I don't really understand what's gonna happen about my living situation either and that's not helping any. Gonna talk to the LandLady soon but I keep putting it off, it's gonna be such a painful conversation! I just wish I could sort it all out without any hassle, but that's clearly not going to happen and I just don't have the energy for it at the moment.
I wish I was closer (geographically) to more of my friends coz I get pretty lonely up here when I'm working nights & evenings there's only so much of my own company I can stand before I start hating myself and calling myself a twat in the mirror (not quite there yet!).
There is light at the end of the tunnel however, after tonight I have 3 weeks off and I'm going to Amsterdam in 6 days! I've been looking forward to this break for about the last 4 months, I so badly need it, if only to pull myself together before I go back to work. I've got quite a 'jam-packed full of awesomeness' week ahead of me after tonight too, so I guess I should be happy/relieved, but I the moment I'm just very bored and very tired. I desperately need to go get drunk and do silly things without work hanging over me :(
Sorry for being all dreary and gay, I'm sure I'll be loads better after tonight. Hope everyone is fantabulous!
Love and Hugs
x x x x x
Well, my life's been quite a kerazy mind-fuck these past few months, and I've been a bit down recently coz of work and shit. They're working me far too hard and it's really sapped any kind of enthusiasm for life out of me. It seems I'm either exhausted, stressed or bored all the time! They owe me almost 32 hours now in overtime I've put in, which is totally mental. I'm probably gonna take the money rather than the days off though, coz I can't really afford not to :/
I don't really understand what's gonna happen about my living situation either and that's not helping any. Gonna talk to the LandLady soon but I keep putting it off, it's gonna be such a painful conversation! I just wish I could sort it all out without any hassle, but that's clearly not going to happen and I just don't have the energy for it at the moment.
I wish I was closer (geographically) to more of my friends coz I get pretty lonely up here when I'm working nights & evenings there's only so much of my own company I can stand before I start hating myself and calling myself a twat in the mirror (not quite there yet!).
There is light at the end of the tunnel however, after tonight I have 3 weeks off and I'm going to Amsterdam in 6 days! I've been looking forward to this break for about the last 4 months, I so badly need it, if only to pull myself together before I go back to work. I've got quite a 'jam-packed full of awesomeness' week ahead of me after tonight too, so I guess I should be happy/relieved, but I the moment I'm just very bored and very tired. I desperately need to go get drunk and do silly things without work hanging over me :(
Sorry for being all dreary and gay, I'm sure I'll be loads better after tonight. Hope everyone is fantabulous!
Love and Hugs
x x x x x