this sucks so far
well...this is a really weird summer for me. i don't feel like hanging out with anyone, i don't feel like having fun. i don't feel like i should be having fun. and we've only been out of school for what? a week? a week and a half? it's going to go by really slowly, most of the time i'm in this horrible mood and all i want to do is just stay at home. and i know that's gotta be like the worst thing for me right now, but i don't feel like going out and pretending to have fun. with johnny gone, all of this summer fun seems to be so out of place. like i feel guilty for having fun, so i don't want to. blech.
and i miss ben. he hasn't even been in costa rica for a week. it's really hard. i need to talk to him. i need to talk to someone. i need to get out of this house, but i have no motivation.
for the first time ever, i'd actually rather be in school.
my mom says that i should go see a grieving counselor, i guess that could be an ok idea, but the thought of talking to someone that i don't know about what i'm going through, and about somone they don't know seems pointless. i think a therapist would be a good idea, i don't know. i don't know anything.
and i miss ben. he hasn't even been in costa rica for a week. it's really hard. i need to talk to him. i need to talk to someone. i need to get out of this house, but i have no motivation.
for the first time ever, i'd actually rather be in school.
my mom says that i should go see a grieving counselor, i guess that could be an ok idea, but the thought of talking to someone that i don't know about what i'm going through, and about somone they don't know seems pointless. i think a therapist would be a good idea, i don't know. i don't know anything.