Never Again
Title: Never Again
Rating: PG
Pairing: broken!Hyunseung/Junhyung, implied!Junhyung/Yoseob
Word Count: 412 [Drabble]
Genre: failed Angst
A/N: yeah.. I dont really know there this came from. feeling a bit depressed, and I guess it came out in my writing too.. I wouldn't consider this my best writing, but probably my closest angst attempt?
Never again would I feel as safe as I did when you had your arms wrapped around me. Seeing those very arms around my best friend makes me feel like the world is going to end with me still in it. So, thank you for taking away my sense of security.
Never again would I feel as happy as I did whenever you were around. You gave me butterflies in my stomach that fluttered around so fast, it made me feel sick. You made my heart beat so fast, I was sure that it would stop anytime. You made me feel like I was going to burst with joy every single time you were near. And I loved it. Every single thing you did made me feel like I was on cloud 9, and I felt this genuine happiness overcome me. So, thank you for taking my taking my world and turning it upside down, making me fall off my cloud and into this dark area of nothingness.
Never again would I feel as right as I did when you told me you loved me. You made me feel like I belonged, like Beast was really the group for me. You made me feel like the only place I wanted to be was here with you. So, thank you for making me feel like crawling into a corner and disappearing off the face of this Earth.
Never again would I feel as much pain as I do now when I see you with Yoseob. What happened to us? What happened to only me? The way you used to look at me when you thought no one else was watching. The way you used to find any little excuse to touch me. Why does it all have to be to him now? I want those moments back. I want you back. I want it to be me, not him. So, thank you for making me hate my own best friend with all that is left of my heart.
Never again would I love the way I loved you. I loved you with all my heart, all my soul. I thought we were really meant to be, and that we would be together forever. I guess fate and destiny had different plans for us. Even the strongest glue would not be able to fix my broken heart, let alone get it to open up for someone new. So thanks, Yong Junhyung, thanks for everything.