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I'm feeling a bit off today. I skipped work to work on my Tolkien and Lewis paper, I went to class, now I'm just sitting here. There's going to be a film tonight for Ethics in Film, and I guess that'll be something to do, but I'm feeling restless, I don't know. I want to talk to people and be around them and do things and go out and get dressed up and live and stuff. It's all a distraction though I think, when I'm left alone with time to just sit and relax I become sad. I don't feel like being sad anymore, it's tiring. I want to just curl up and forget about all this shit, to forget about having to find a job, to forget about having to completely reshape my life, to forget about having to move out of school and be at home again in a little over a month. I want to just forget and burry myself in everything that's ever made me happy but I can't find it...sometimes I feel like I'm losing everything. Honestly, what do I have left now? I'm leaving my school, I'm going to have to leave my friends...WHAT DO I HAVE LEFT?