perplexed, frustrated, and confused.

[carady]

so i wrote him a great email, i figured he'd appreciate it. damn that myspace contraption that lets you see if someone's read your message to them. because he's read it... but he hasnt written back. i know sometimes you dont always have time to reply right away, but i'm also an extreme pessimist, so i'm off down the tangent that says he hates me, i'm annoying, i'm a crazy stalker bitch. great. but i really do like him. damn those snowy owl bitches... waiting for dead mice is harder than it sounds! [haha] so here i am. stuck. i have a couple options. i can wait to see if he replies to my email. i can call him. i can go stick a birthday card under his windshield-wiper while he's at work. and last, i do absolutely nothing and wait until the show, and then give him stuff. i dont know what to do, and i have mixed feelings about everything. damn me and my natural deconstruction! see, i need to know how he feels about me, so i can either give up, or keep pushing. but i cant tell. i dont want to look like an idiot or a stalker, so two of my options are out. and the last one... well, it's really complicated i guess.

my horoscopes are just as bad.
Stop talking and start acting, especially when it comes to that person you've had a crush on for ages. Go up and start a conversation. Who knows? They might turn out to be just what you were seeking. [this means i should call him, right?]
Feel like you've miscalculated something in the game of love? That's okay -- everyone has to take a risk now and then, if only to learn something new. Dust yourself off and get back on the field. [either he hates me and i dont know it, or he's the risk i should be taking, or... hell i dont know.]