freedom of speech
well, sorta. it's just that i dont want to talk about it on myspace, because some of those involved would read it, and i havent said anything yet, and i think that would be a bad way to find out.
today i quoted the clash at a boy. "should i stay or should i go?" very cliche, true, but it was exactly what i was asking. now.... more that i think about it... the philosophy in that question and the rest of the chorus is what's bothering.
should i stay or should i go? if i stay there could be trouble, if i go there could be double.
it's actually more like the opposite. if i go.... well, ok. he's gone for a week, so if i feel out the water on this other prospect, and it sucks, he'll never have to know. BUT. his water dont exactly feel so great either. it's very uncomfortable, very awkward. if i lose them both, it'll suck.... but wouldnt it actually be best for me? i mean.... i may not like the new one, but it's not like i can suck it up and fake it around the old one and pretend i'm happy. it's just not working. let's blame it on me. i dont want to have that conversation with him..... it's not a real thing anyways.... but i also dont want to lead him on in any way, shape, or form, so i feel like i need to say something. it's just too awkward for me to have any fun. like i said.... let's blame me. *sigh*
today i quoted the clash at a boy. "should i stay or should i go?" very cliche, true, but it was exactly what i was asking. now.... more that i think about it... the philosophy in that question and the rest of the chorus is what's bothering.
should i stay or should i go? if i stay there could be trouble, if i go there could be double.
it's actually more like the opposite. if i go.... well, ok. he's gone for a week, so if i feel out the water on this other prospect, and it sucks, he'll never have to know. BUT. his water dont exactly feel so great either. it's very uncomfortable, very awkward. if i lose them both, it'll suck.... but wouldnt it actually be best for me? i mean.... i may not like the new one, but it's not like i can suck it up and fake it around the old one and pretend i'm happy. it's just not working. let's blame it on me. i dont want to have that conversation with him..... it's not a real thing anyways.... but i also dont want to lead him on in any way, shape, or form, so i feel like i need to say something. it's just too awkward for me to have any fun. like i said.... let's blame me. *sigh*