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[caradrx]

I can't sleep. It doesn't happen all that often, which is surprising given that all of the things keeping me awake are usually true. My hips hurt. I have nothing lovely to think about. I realized that in addition to losing my ability to run and enjoy my body in that manner, my body has also ceased to be touched by others. Where it used to be something that cuddled and held my children, now I never touch them.

This is too sad for me to continue.