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i met with someone today... someone who has more of an effect on my adult life than any other person i've met. as i sat and talked with her about the present, past and future, i had two songs go through my head over and over. one song was for me and the other was for her. i heard them over and over again and now i realize that even though they are children's songs, they hold more truth to me now than when i was a young boy.
until i looked up the lyrics, i never knew this song had such a sad ending -- and yet a fitting one for me considering the circumstances...
You Are My Sunshine
Jimmie Davis
You are my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away
The other night dear as I lay dreaming
I dreamt that you were by my side
Came disillusion when I awoke dear
You were gone and then I cried
You are my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away
You told me once dear there'd be no other
That no one else could come between
But now you've left me to love another
You have broken all my dreams
You are my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away
i know this song is meant for a girl, but really the intent can be applied to either gender. i often think of this song these days as i come to a point where i have to make tough decisions in my life. only today, it wasn't me who was left with these questions. so this song is for her, that she may reflect and find her own way... because all i ever wanted was for her to just be happy.
QUE SERA, SERA
Doris Day
When I was just a little girl,
I asked my mother, "What will I be?
Will I be pretty?
Will I be rich?"
Here's what she said to me:
"Que sera, sera,
Whatever will be, will be;
The future's not ours to see.
Que sera, sera,
What will be, will be."
When I was just a child in school,
I asked my teacher, "What will I try?
Should I paint pictures"
Should I sing songs?"
This was her wise reply:
"Que sera, sera,
Whatever will be, will be;
The future's not ours to see.
Que sera, sera,
What will be, will be."
When I grew up and fell in love.
I asked my sweetheart, "What lies ahead?
Will we have rainbows
Day after day?"
Here's what my sweetheart said:
"Que sera, sera,
Whatever will be, will be;
The future's not ours to see.
Que sera, sera,
What will be, will be."
Now I have Children of my own.
They ask their mother, "What will I be?"
Will I be handsome?
Will I be rich?"
I tell them tenderly:
"Que sera, sera,
Whatever will be, will be;
The future's not ours to see.
Que sera, sera,
What will be, will be.
Que Sera, Sera!"
despite the voices in my head and the sadness that seems to hang on these words, today was a good day. after she had hugged me and left -- perhaps for the last time -- i immediately began to feel the pain wash away. i still feel it now, hours and hours later, seeping out of my skin and leaving me in peace -- a peace i welcome as i smile and close my eyes to sleep, knowing no visions will haunt my dreams or startle me in waking moments. i look forward to a new day...