Im sick of...
God... life has been very frustrating for me the last few weeks. Im the type of person where if my life in any way feels unbalanced or chaotic.. I break down and I cant really get myself back up again. Everything feels out of grasp and control. School has been hard.. it has been really hard to balance school and my personal life. It doesnt help that I feel ill all the time or that Im exhausted after being awake for 20 minutes which causes me to not be able to concentrate in class. Im sick of being broke. Im sick of worrying if Im gonna have rent money and being worried that I wont be able to pay my bills on time. Im sick of my best friend being in Thailand.Im sick of having a messy room. Im sick of my other best friend who changed and is being a doormate to her boyfriend. Im sick of people discussing my life without me. Im sick of cliques. Im sick of not being able to sleep. Im sick of my room being too hot at night. Im sick of my stupid neighbours that live below me and have been harrassing me for nearly two years. Im sick of being sick. Im sick of victoria. Im just fucking sick in general of everything. I just want things to get better... but Im scared that nothing will ever work for me. I hope that I will be able to get through this little crisis Im having now, but things seem pretty hopeless. I have a lot of healing............. this is just my frustration getting out..