I lie In an Early bed-Thinking late thoughts
So I got my new Hooti album, which I appreciate very much. Hootie rocks.
I think I told you that last night.
-Once my lover now my friend, what a cruel thing to pretend, what a cunning way to condicend.
I'm thinking that I need to go home now. This is getting a little too much for me. My mum has been really sad that she didnt get chosen for this St.Petersburg thing, and today they called and told her that the old chef wanted to stay on, and so she feels a little better. But i think that once I'm gone, that she and Martti can decide what to do with their lives, my mum might want to buy an osuus off a ship and move in with mara, and that i think would be cool. But I think that she needs for me to leave before she can actually get on with her life. and that's what I feel. Like i need to leave before I can get on with mine. Home is waiting for me, I can hear it calling. Especially now that the time for laura to leave is getting closer, and anna's been calling more, and I've had more emails from back home. I think that everyone feels the pull. It's weird to explain it like that, but once you've started a new life, going back to the old life is so difficult in all ways to everyone, things that were once simple no longer are. You think you understand your friends, and the people around you, but instead you've found out things about them now that they don't even see. it's begining to get scary,.
Well I can do 3 more weeks, to get some money and get my teeth sorted out. But I'm done here. It's over.
I had some more Subway dreams last night. I mean, when can i actually get rid of that place. It's not cool, but i guess there are stupid things that will haunt you for the rest of your life. like that time that i did the 6th grade play, and i was playing the princess and i was meant to compare these two necklaces and i took the wrong one off my neck, and i thought i had ruined the whole play (when in fact the rest of the show went to hell as well, especially when the mermaids dropped the 'deadä mermaid off the bed that they were carrying her on into the crowd), and i thought that my teacher had said to me, 'i'm going to kill you', and to me it seemed like a very likely thing for him to say, it didn't cross my mind at all that i had misheard. Lol, maybe now i think a little differently.
anyway, some adam duritz for today:
"My Love"
my love
lives out at the end of the road
takes what you give her and goes
says things that everyone knows
shes only willing
to kiss me again
lights me on fire
sprays me with water
and she lights me up again
said my love
burried my head in the sand
screams just as loud as she can
sings me to sleep when I cant
shes always willing
to kiss me again
she wakes up the neighbors
Goes down for water
and then she comes up again
I said good love
lives on the radio dial
never goes out of style
makes all the children run wild
we keep on thinking
Strait to the end?
now its completly
we just just shout for the moment and then we vanish again
my love
waits at the end of the road
takes what you give her and goes
says things that everyone knows
ya shes my love
talking about my love
ya shes my love-
I think I told you that last night.
-Once my lover now my friend, what a cruel thing to pretend, what a cunning way to condicend.
I'm thinking that I need to go home now. This is getting a little too much for me. My mum has been really sad that she didnt get chosen for this St.Petersburg thing, and today they called and told her that the old chef wanted to stay on, and so she feels a little better. But i think that once I'm gone, that she and Martti can decide what to do with their lives, my mum might want to buy an osuus off a ship and move in with mara, and that i think would be cool. But I think that she needs for me to leave before she can actually get on with her life. and that's what I feel. Like i need to leave before I can get on with mine. Home is waiting for me, I can hear it calling. Especially now that the time for laura to leave is getting closer, and anna's been calling more, and I've had more emails from back home. I think that everyone feels the pull. It's weird to explain it like that, but once you've started a new life, going back to the old life is so difficult in all ways to everyone, things that were once simple no longer are. You think you understand your friends, and the people around you, but instead you've found out things about them now that they don't even see. it's begining to get scary,.
Well I can do 3 more weeks, to get some money and get my teeth sorted out. But I'm done here. It's over.
I had some more Subway dreams last night. I mean, when can i actually get rid of that place. It's not cool, but i guess there are stupid things that will haunt you for the rest of your life. like that time that i did the 6th grade play, and i was playing the princess and i was meant to compare these two necklaces and i took the wrong one off my neck, and i thought i had ruined the whole play (when in fact the rest of the show went to hell as well, especially when the mermaids dropped the 'deadä mermaid off the bed that they were carrying her on into the crowd), and i thought that my teacher had said to me, 'i'm going to kill you', and to me it seemed like a very likely thing for him to say, it didn't cross my mind at all that i had misheard. Lol, maybe now i think a little differently.
anyway, some adam duritz for today:
"My Love"
my love
lives out at the end of the road
takes what you give her and goes
says things that everyone knows
shes only willing
to kiss me again
lights me on fire
sprays me with water
and she lights me up again
said my love
burried my head in the sand
screams just as loud as she can
sings me to sleep when I cant
shes always willing
to kiss me again
she wakes up the neighbors
Goes down for water
and then she comes up again
I said good love
lives on the radio dial
never goes out of style
makes all the children run wild
we keep on thinking
Strait to the end?
now its completly
we just just shout for the moment and then we vanish again
my love
waits at the end of the road
takes what you give her and goes
says things that everyone knows
ya shes my love
talking about my love
ya shes my love-