Id rather be at the beach
I cant believe I am about to say what I am going to say...
I have three months left living in Moorpark.
I didnt think I would actually reach the day where my AA would be complete at Moorpark college. But it is, and I am moving forward with my life on the path I need to take to become who I want to be.
I will miss Moorpark, but I am seeing sooo much more than ever that I am at a different level in my life and I don't match up inter-personally with these people anymore. I cant party like I used to, and when I surround myself with this party stuff I find myself vocalizing the pain I feel about seeing so many people mistreating others, mistreating me. And I am sick of it. it makes me sad and it hurts so much that I want nothing to do with it or them. there are many people id be happy to never see again.
Admittingly, I am a heavy person. When I feel so passionately its hard to hold back in expressing what I think and there are far too many that arent ready to think or feel those things in this intense reality. I have already experienced three long term relationships and I have spent 60 units in school learning about intimacy/relationships, critical thinking and writing, human sexuality, psychology, womens history, sociology, dance, astronomy, art around the world, philosophy, and sooo many more things.
My mind has truly developed and expanded from all the information and feelings that I am finding out who I am and what i want to do with my life alot more than others my age.
I'm not really going anywhere with this, all I know is I'm being held back because I'm caring too much about the wrong people in this town and I'm starting to deal with it by realizing I just have to move on with my life and do the things I love.
I have three months left living in Moorpark.
I didnt think I would actually reach the day where my AA would be complete at Moorpark college. But it is, and I am moving forward with my life on the path I need to take to become who I want to be.
I will miss Moorpark, but I am seeing sooo much more than ever that I am at a different level in my life and I don't match up inter-personally with these people anymore. I cant party like I used to, and when I surround myself with this party stuff I find myself vocalizing the pain I feel about seeing so many people mistreating others, mistreating me. And I am sick of it. it makes me sad and it hurts so much that I want nothing to do with it or them. there are many people id be happy to never see again.
Admittingly, I am a heavy person. When I feel so passionately its hard to hold back in expressing what I think and there are far too many that arent ready to think or feel those things in this intense reality. I have already experienced three long term relationships and I have spent 60 units in school learning about intimacy/relationships, critical thinking and writing, human sexuality, psychology, womens history, sociology, dance, astronomy, art around the world, philosophy, and sooo many more things.
My mind has truly developed and expanded from all the information and feelings that I am finding out who I am and what i want to do with my life alot more than others my age.
I'm not really going anywhere with this, all I know is I'm being held back because I'm caring too much about the wrong people in this town and I'm starting to deal with it by realizing I just have to move on with my life and do the things I love.