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So now I'm confused because George is like totally cool to me and he even dressed up real nice for my Birthday. He is gorgeous, wait... are guys gorgeous or are the just handsom and sexy, or even just cute? Well, he is gorgeous and sexy to me. I am in love with him and man am I in some serious need for theorapy. I love George because he is sexy and brutally honest with me but I'm still talking to Colin. Colin has a women been with her for 14 years has three kids but he still make the effort to talk to me as often as he can. Which is pratically all the time. He even stays up late just to talk to me giving up what little sleep he can have just for me. He a little bit confusing. He is unsure how he really feels about me and that makes things odd. He says he loves me but then says he loves his women and no one can take her place but then he sends me music for two ppl in love singing of soul mates and all that other stuff it gets confusing because I like him and I mean really like him but he confusing. Like he say we just real good friends then say I can't stop thinking of you all day you on my mind. HAHA but say we not in love just two ppl who like eachother company then he say I love you I deleted all my other contacts to give you full attention? See confused,... dude got issues. He knows about George but George doesn't know about him well he did I had to lie and tell him I got rid of George Least I could do since he deleted his groups at least i think he did. George is the possesive type. He got mad when I told him about sexting another, we had a huge fight and he was mean but I was more worried about losing him than what he said. Maybe I don't love him but he the first person I have ever told about being with others and cheating on my husband. I also told him about my need and want for sex. He wants me to come to London to see him but I think if I went I would never come back. He either sale me in sex slavery or I love it there to much. I'm not sure which. Either way it would be a trip I would make with the intentions of never returning. I think? Its hard to think about possiblities when there are so many of them. My life is hard and I love too much I think. Its like having a new puppy its cute and everything great while they are puppy but when they grow the things you used to like annoy you that is what ppl are like for me that includes men and women. I never keep the same friends just get knew ones with knew lives. George is a mistery to me. he skateboards, plays xbox, ( Mostly fighting games and skates) and he paints models. Like little ppl and stuff. He seems real nice but can be real ass. He get to thinking and then before I know it he wants to kill himself. I find him annoying sometimes because I have to fake like I'm crying and send photo of me crying I use water dropplets. LOL I only care if he dies because then I would have to stop lying to Colin and be honest with him. I like having George because I can be me mostly. I can't tell him truth about wanting to screw other ppl or that I cyber all the time. LOL He thinks its just him LOL nope I do it all the time with randoms lol all come back wanting more I only like doing it once with others George and Colin only ones I've done it more than once with. I guess I kinda love them both. I think about them when I have sex with my husband. i imagine them pushing inside me.