Oh it's a beautiful thing

[capturetherain]

It’s been entirely too long since I have written in here. I’ve tired several times but keep getting distracted or not knowing what to say. The semester is over and with it I’m half-way done with college and even though I can graduate and in three and a half years I plan on staying for four. Anyway the first time I went home all semester was for thanksgiving. It was strange to not be home for over three months. It was nice to see the family again and friends but it definitely reminded me of how much I dislike South Florida at this point. People are so freaking rude. Now I’m home for winter break and it feels good to be home, knowing I will be here for a few weeks. The semester went really well and while there were a few frustrating times I can honestly say it’s the first time I have felt completely at home in Gainesville. I truly like it there and having an awesome group of friends and a god sent boyfriend makes it all the more special. Todd and I are doing very well, we have been together three months as of the 22nd and I’ve loved every moment of it. He makes me fee alive, and safe, and calm and gives me that warm and fuzzy feeling inside that I haven’t felt since I was a kid. I’m totally in love and it’s a love I have never felt before, a genuinely deep love. I never imagined I would fall so fast and so deeply in love but I did and it’s the greatest feeling in the world. I feel at peace for the first time in at least a year, probably a lot more. There is a sense of calm and togetherness about me that I didn’t have before and a lot of my friends have taken notice to it. I could never have imagined that things would work out the way they did, but that’s what makes it so amazing. As for the holidays I going to be in Broward for two weeks and then on the 28th-3rd I will be in Ohio, where Todd lives when he’s not at UF. I’m really excited to go even though it’s going to most likely be the coldest weather I have ever been in. It will also be the first time I see snow, if they have any. I can’t even completely put into words how perfect this relationship with Todd and I is. He’s such a genuinely great guy who truly cares about me, he keeps me laughing and we just have an awesome time together no matter what we are doing. So as you can tell, I’ve been doing really well and it’s incredible to be able to say that after everything I went through last year. I understand now why we have to go through the rough and just downright shitty times, it’s because there are better days ahead than we even thought possible and I’m so happy to be living them. I’m excited to see what the future brings but very content in the present as well.

It's your love
It just does something to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder about the spell I'm under
Oh it's your love.

Better than I was
More than I am
And all of this happened
By takin' your hand
And who I am now
Is who I wanted to be
And now that we're together
I'm stronger than ever I'm happy and free.