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it has been a good three months since my last post. much has happened since then and i feel the need to write it down someplace. i should write it in my actual journal..and i probably will. but this is just as easy if not easier. so the last entry was written right after evan and i's huge blow out. i refused to his gf and he was pissed that i was stringing him along, which for the record, i wasnt doing. he knew from the beginning i didnt want anything more from him than what i was taking. the next weekend was my birthday. i turned 25. i still can not believe it. it feels really old. but i still feel 18...or 54....i can never tell. anyway, bday weekend was full of drinks and great friends..bowling and shakin my ass. i did miss evan a few times. but i was also really distraced by activities and friends. coreboy came into jtown for the first time since i moved there five years ago. he only got to stay a day but it was really nice having him there.
the weekend after that i spend in dc with megan jo and the girls. that was also another really awesome time. evan and i were speaking again and i got really drunk on something called sailor jerry. i love megan jo and my bdays being close. two weeks of fun. ha.
the next week i worked everyday. one day after i got off work i went to indiana, pa's blockbuster to help do inventory. i made evan come because he had been there before and i didnt know anyone, so i thought it would be nice to have him there. when we got there though and i met all the boys, i started to wish i hadnt braught him. i never wanted him touchin on me or giving me kisses in front of people....i dont totally know why...it wasnt embaressment...or anything like that. i just didnt want him to. i met four guys that night. cory / anthony / travis and mike. cory and anthony worked the night shift right before we started the inventory so they left like 40 minutes after we got there. travis and mike stayed to do the inventory with us. we were there til 4 or so...i liked all the boys except for mike. he was rude and just little annoying. travis seemed nice enough. his flirting kept making evan irritated which in turn made me laugh. so i kept letting him do it. the boys who left after we got there also seemed nice. cory and i hit it off talking about hockey and the upcoming playoffs. he also told me about his band and asked me to come watch. this was sweet, although i wasnt going to go. ha. the other kid was cute, but the boys told me he was in some frat and that was a total turnoff. although i kept thinking he didnt seem like an asshole frat boy.
evan and i got back to jtown late and had breakfast and another fight in the car because i wanted to go in and go to bed and he wanted to be a couple. ha. finally he went home and i went to bed.
while all this was going on i was offered a job with a photography firm. it seemed awesome, until i found out the lady was not totally honest with me and the job turned out to be pretty bogus. but anyway....a few days after the inventory travis called and wanted some help filling boxes and doing pulls at his store. i said i would go and make evan go again because they really needed the help. when we got there it was cory and anthony working again. it was great hanging out with them the whole night. evan kept telling me to stop flirting, but i didnt care. the boys were cute and sweet and didnt know anything about my past...or anything about me at all. that was actually the most awesome thing of all. haha.
by the end of that night i was getting sick of evan. we faught the whole way back again. i did sleep with him a few more times but i think it was because i was still lonely and it would keep him quiet for awhile.
the second or third week in april i found out that the photo job was nothing like what i thought and i went and quit. i was half way to indiana and had marcus call the bb there to see if they could use some help. he called me back and said they could. so i went to iup for the third time in two weeks. this time by myself. and thank goodness i was. i spent about five hours flirting and talking with anthony. i thought he was a senior or older and he sort of told me about his frat..that it wasnt typical. we looked for movies and got alot of work done despite all our talking and flirting. i wore his sweatshirt around when i got cold. he was cute and he smelled good. we all know that smell is huge with me. ha. anyway. i decided to leave when anth left because i didnt know the other guys working, plus i really thought that anthony was going to ask me out on a date. he didnt, but we exchanged gamer tags. i know i know. hilarious. over the next week we played h with my boys every other day...then finally anthony sent me an email that had his phone number in it. and i sent him mine. we texted all day almost everyday after that for a month. it was an awesome way (i found out) to learn about someone. we played a sort of 20 questions that never ended. he was so sweet...and charming. he would send me pictures of flowers and talk all about his day and his friends. i loved it. i was smitten and we hadnt even really spent any time together. we talked on the phone a couple times. it wasnt awkward and i really thought it would be. he kept saying he wanted a chance to hang out with me, and i wanted to see him, too. we made plans for the one weekend i had off and he came into iup. it was easy from the moment i got there til the moment i left. we made out and fooled around and he made a huge dinner and we watched movies....it was just a really great getaway. too bad i came home to crazy evan mess.
that sunday i got home evan showed up..in my bed at three in the morning. on monday i kicked him out and told him i couldnt do it anymore. i wouldnt sleep with him ever again and i went to work. when i got home evan was drunk and messed up. it was the worst night of my life. awful.awful awful. i wont go into details. lets just say, i havent spoken to him since that night and i never expect to talk to him again.
after that blew over i found out we were evicted bc of evan's fiasco. marcus and i had a huge fight and i tried to find us a new house. mike at bloomfield took us in, which was awesome. more money....but awesome. all through the rest of may and june i spent working and trying to see anth. he came in and did family stuff with me a few weekends....we went to the dmb concerts and i met some more of his friends. (honestly a great weekend, i feel really happy that he wanted me to go, it was like the 5th thing we talked about was him taking me to that....and he did it) so i guess it will be no surprise that after may and june and now halfway into july, anth and i are officially together. it is sometimes still weird for me to think that drew and i will never be again. but now its more weird bc he was like a habit that i had to break and every now and then i still jones for him. (not in the sex kind of way, sometimes just to be called twig again...or the way we were just so used to each other.)
a huge milestone was when i stopped waking up every day thinking about him. somehow anth was able to snuff him out without even trying to. i'm so used to getting a good morning from anthony that that is all i look forward to. he has not in two and half months not said good morning. that to me is so impressive.
i should mention that i am in greenville right now. his little bizarro bedford county. no joke. anth grew up in the same place i did..just called something else. that also makes me feel so at home with him.
there are a million more details i could say about him and why i am so all about this and wasnt even close to being all about evan. i am just happy.
the weekend after that i spend in dc with megan jo and the girls. that was also another really awesome time. evan and i were speaking again and i got really drunk on something called sailor jerry. i love megan jo and my bdays being close. two weeks of fun. ha.
the next week i worked everyday. one day after i got off work i went to indiana, pa's blockbuster to help do inventory. i made evan come because he had been there before and i didnt know anyone, so i thought it would be nice to have him there. when we got there though and i met all the boys, i started to wish i hadnt braught him. i never wanted him touchin on me or giving me kisses in front of people....i dont totally know why...it wasnt embaressment...or anything like that. i just didnt want him to. i met four guys that night. cory / anthony / travis and mike. cory and anthony worked the night shift right before we started the inventory so they left like 40 minutes after we got there. travis and mike stayed to do the inventory with us. we were there til 4 or so...i liked all the boys except for mike. he was rude and just little annoying. travis seemed nice enough. his flirting kept making evan irritated which in turn made me laugh. so i kept letting him do it. the boys who left after we got there also seemed nice. cory and i hit it off talking about hockey and the upcoming playoffs. he also told me about his band and asked me to come watch. this was sweet, although i wasnt going to go. ha. the other kid was cute, but the boys told me he was in some frat and that was a total turnoff. although i kept thinking he didnt seem like an asshole frat boy.
evan and i got back to jtown late and had breakfast and another fight in the car because i wanted to go in and go to bed and he wanted to be a couple. ha. finally he went home and i went to bed.
while all this was going on i was offered a job with a photography firm. it seemed awesome, until i found out the lady was not totally honest with me and the job turned out to be pretty bogus. but anyway....a few days after the inventory travis called and wanted some help filling boxes and doing pulls at his store. i said i would go and make evan go again because they really needed the help. when we got there it was cory and anthony working again. it was great hanging out with them the whole night. evan kept telling me to stop flirting, but i didnt care. the boys were cute and sweet and didnt know anything about my past...or anything about me at all. that was actually the most awesome thing of all. haha.
by the end of that night i was getting sick of evan. we faught the whole way back again. i did sleep with him a few more times but i think it was because i was still lonely and it would keep him quiet for awhile.
the second or third week in april i found out that the photo job was nothing like what i thought and i went and quit. i was half way to indiana and had marcus call the bb there to see if they could use some help. he called me back and said they could. so i went to iup for the third time in two weeks. this time by myself. and thank goodness i was. i spent about five hours flirting and talking with anthony. i thought he was a senior or older and he sort of told me about his frat..that it wasnt typical. we looked for movies and got alot of work done despite all our talking and flirting. i wore his sweatshirt around when i got cold. he was cute and he smelled good. we all know that smell is huge with me. ha. anyway. i decided to leave when anth left because i didnt know the other guys working, plus i really thought that anthony was going to ask me out on a date. he didnt, but we exchanged gamer tags. i know i know. hilarious. over the next week we played h with my boys every other day...then finally anthony sent me an email that had his phone number in it. and i sent him mine. we texted all day almost everyday after that for a month. it was an awesome way (i found out) to learn about someone. we played a sort of 20 questions that never ended. he was so sweet...and charming. he would send me pictures of flowers and talk all about his day and his friends. i loved it. i was smitten and we hadnt even really spent any time together. we talked on the phone a couple times. it wasnt awkward and i really thought it would be. he kept saying he wanted a chance to hang out with me, and i wanted to see him, too. we made plans for the one weekend i had off and he came into iup. it was easy from the moment i got there til the moment i left. we made out and fooled around and he made a huge dinner and we watched movies....it was just a really great getaway. too bad i came home to crazy evan mess.
that sunday i got home evan showed up..in my bed at three in the morning. on monday i kicked him out and told him i couldnt do it anymore. i wouldnt sleep with him ever again and i went to work. when i got home evan was drunk and messed up. it was the worst night of my life. awful.awful awful. i wont go into details. lets just say, i havent spoken to him since that night and i never expect to talk to him again.
after that blew over i found out we were evicted bc of evan's fiasco. marcus and i had a huge fight and i tried to find us a new house. mike at bloomfield took us in, which was awesome. more money....but awesome. all through the rest of may and june i spent working and trying to see anth. he came in and did family stuff with me a few weekends....we went to the dmb concerts and i met some more of his friends. (honestly a great weekend, i feel really happy that he wanted me to go, it was like the 5th thing we talked about was him taking me to that....and he did it) so i guess it will be no surprise that after may and june and now halfway into july, anth and i are officially together. it is sometimes still weird for me to think that drew and i will never be again. but now its more weird bc he was like a habit that i had to break and every now and then i still jones for him. (not in the sex kind of way, sometimes just to be called twig again...or the way we were just so used to each other.)
a huge milestone was when i stopped waking up every day thinking about him. somehow anth was able to snuff him out without even trying to. i'm so used to getting a good morning from anthony that that is all i look forward to. he has not in two and half months not said good morning. that to me is so impressive.
i should mention that i am in greenville right now. his little bizarro bedford county. no joke. anth grew up in the same place i did..just called something else. that also makes me feel so at home with him.
there are a million more details i could say about him and why i am so all about this and wasnt even close to being all about evan. i am just happy.