the ball is NOT in my court

[capture_me]

lately i have found that i use the phrase,"the ball is in their court" I don't know why i do that. Question is what am i going to do tonight. am i going to go out and try and have a good time? perhaps. but good time doesn't really mean anything, i have a good time when my friends come over for a visit, i have a good time at a museum. i should go to a museum. there are lots of things i should be doing. but i am not doing them.
I REFUSE. and i will not go silently into the night.
but i am feeling better (not really sick anymore) so thats good.