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So, my grandma is in the hospital again. My mom called and told me this morning. She said that unless something amazing happens, she's going up to Michigan tomorrow to see her. I'm really scared that something is going to happen. She's been going in a lot lately. I love my grandma so much. I haven't seen her in a year and I don't want the next time that I see her to be because of this. I'm just really scared. I didn't go to class today. I wasn't planning on going, but mom called right before I was supposed to leave. I'm glad I decided not to go. I wouldn't have been able to concentrate on anything. I would have had to tote myself around town with nothing to do but think about this. This hurts so bad. I don't want anything to happen to her. I want her to be here when I have my chance to give her more great grandchildren. I know this is selfish of me. I just don't know what to do. I can't talk to her. I know that if I call her, I'm going to start crying uncontrolably and I don't want to do that to her. I just want her to know that I love her so much. I don't know what to do. I'm by myself 'cuz Heather is in class until 2 and won't be home until about 2:30. I don't feel like doing anything. I need to e-mail my professor and tell him why I wasn't in class.
Ok, I'm done.
Ok, I'm done.