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So, a week till Christmas. Doesn't feel like it. ::sigh:: I guess it gets worse and worse as you get older. That also means only 10 days until my 20th birthday. How exciting. [please note sarcasm]
Heather, unfortunately, will not be back for my birthday. So, the one thing I really wanted will not come. I think I'm just going to work on my birthday and forget it ever happened. I'm not really planning anything because all my friends will be broke 'cuz of Christmas, so what's the point? I guess I'm just feeling really depressed about this one.
It's also starting to hit me that I'm moving away. Basicly for good. I don't know if I'll stay in NC for a while, or just for school. I don't know if I want this to be a permanent change. I don't know if I want to leave all of my friends here. I guess that this is just a really depressing time of year. Ba-humbug.
I really have decided that I don't like Christmas. The happiest time of year becomes the most stressful. Does that mean that we must be stressed to create happiness? All good things, I suppose, come from sacrifice and hard work, but is that how it should be? I know that you must have both extremes in order for the world to work, but I can't stand it. People fight for weeks before this day for no reason. You spend all this money to show someone how much you care for them, but shouldn't they already know? Why must you measure your love with material possessions? I really don't understand this world.
So, I probably won't update again until after my birthday or even after I move. My last day here will probably be in about 2 weeks.
To all of you who still have the spirit, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Heather, unfortunately, will not be back for my birthday. So, the one thing I really wanted will not come. I think I'm just going to work on my birthday and forget it ever happened. I'm not really planning anything because all my friends will be broke 'cuz of Christmas, so what's the point? I guess I'm just feeling really depressed about this one.
It's also starting to hit me that I'm moving away. Basicly for good. I don't know if I'll stay in NC for a while, or just for school. I don't know if I want this to be a permanent change. I don't know if I want to leave all of my friends here. I guess that this is just a really depressing time of year. Ba-humbug.
I really have decided that I don't like Christmas. The happiest time of year becomes the most stressful. Does that mean that we must be stressed to create happiness? All good things, I suppose, come from sacrifice and hard work, but is that how it should be? I know that you must have both extremes in order for the world to work, but I can't stand it. People fight for weeks before this day for no reason. You spend all this money to show someone how much you care for them, but shouldn't they already know? Why must you measure your love with material possessions? I really don't understand this world.
So, I probably won't update again until after my birthday or even after I move. My last day here will probably be in about 2 weeks.
To all of you who still have the spirit, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.