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ok...now for a real post, not just a one-liner. today was one of the worst since the start of school. i'm still a bitter old miser from when my baybeh left on saturday, couldn't get my mind off of her all day sunday and now i'm forced to go back to school where i see all of these bastards, who wouldn't realize how lucky they were if a leprechaun came up and shoved a pot of gold down their throats, coupled together and all i can think is, "i only want to be with her, is that too much to ask?" today was the first day of school where i rushed home only to be hit in the face by the fact that i no longer have a reason to rush home. my reason has travelled back to california. however, i did get to make a phone call which put me in a decent mood for about an hour. even from 2500 miles away she can still brighten up my day with only the sound of her voice. however brief it may be it still puts me in a state of utopia where there is no seperating distance between us. i long for christmas break. and to cap off a pretty much crappy day, i'm going to bed early. know why? because i can't even stand to just sit around, i find myself unable to stop thinking where i could be. there were so many options i could have pursued in CA why did i have to leave? i had places to stay, people that loved me, and even a spot to play baseball. now i am surrounded by this nothingness that, each night, tries to consume me. but i wont let it, i have faith and in 114 days i'll be whole once again.