5:15 am
I just took a hot shower and shaved. Now I'm wasting more of my life on MySpace. Nothing like waking up at 3 am running along the edge of a cliff (this is how I feel when I'm riding the edge of an anxiety attack) I'm too tired to sleep. Every time I try I just start thinking about stuff and it gets very tough to breath. I wish I could be more like Buddha. I just can't seem to find that calm. I can't seem to just let the things I can't control or change at the moment be. I can't stop letting myself feel like a loser. Fortunately, I can't just give up and allow myself to be a loser either. I need to just start thinking and acting one day at a time.