In Your Eyes
Have You ever heard that song by Bethany Dillon called "Beautiful"? Here are some of the lyrics:
Crying myself to sleep cause I can't keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me
Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe of me
Look inside my heart,
And be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful
Sometimes, that is how You make me feel. I want to be better because You don't necessarily approve. You don't notice me, or You pretend not to, and it just hurts so much, more than You could ever know. And for one fleeting moment, I think maybe I've made You happy. You dangle it in front of me but never actually give it to me. And then You just kind of forget about me. Forget that I made You happy. Forget that I care what You say to me. And the worst of it all is, You don't even know how I feel. And I could never tell You, because then it would cause this huge rift between us that I could never live with. But I can't go on living like this. Every time I think it's gone, You do something so sweet that it starts all over again. And then You have to ruin it for some reason. You can never leave it happily and Heaven forbid You go any further in our relationship. It's like You hate me. You hate me and Your hatred is so strong that You like watching me suffer, so You toy with my brain and then break my heart. BAH!! I just want to be worthy of Your love and beautiful to You.
I am now officially done ranting.
Crying myself to sleep cause I can't keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me
Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe of me
Look inside my heart,
And be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful
Sometimes, that is how You make me feel. I want to be better because You don't necessarily approve. You don't notice me, or You pretend not to, and it just hurts so much, more than You could ever know. And for one fleeting moment, I think maybe I've made You happy. You dangle it in front of me but never actually give it to me. And then You just kind of forget about me. Forget that I made You happy. Forget that I care what You say to me. And the worst of it all is, You don't even know how I feel. And I could never tell You, because then it would cause this huge rift between us that I could never live with. But I can't go on living like this. Every time I think it's gone, You do something so sweet that it starts all over again. And then You have to ruin it for some reason. You can never leave it happily and Heaven forbid You go any further in our relationship. It's like You hate me. You hate me and Your hatred is so strong that You like watching me suffer, so You toy with my brain and then break my heart. BAH!! I just want to be worthy of Your love and beautiful to You.
I am now officially done ranting.