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I feel like I just got a lot of weight off my shoulders. Well most of you know about my brother's disorders and mental shit. I got a call from one of his old friends. I think I found a "long lost big brother" that I never had before. I was able to talk to this guy about anything.Its weird how I can relate to this guy whos 26. I learned a lot about what my brother was like younger. He knew my brother since they were in first grade. We discussed the hardships of our lives. He wanted to know what was going on with my brother so I explained what was going on. Unlike the other old friends who would call and i would explain to them how my brother was acting and they didnt know what to say. However, this guy had something to say that made me think he really understood my brother.He said all the prescription drugs my brother took is part to blame for how he is today. But also he said back when he use to hang out with my brother he could see problems with my brother such as my brother didnt become stressful he was always under stress. My mom said my brother use to be so happy and outgoing with tons of friends, but the guy i talked to said my brother was really never happy. Thats the thing that parents dont know as much about their child as their friends do. He also told me my brother never did drugs or drank alcohol, he was a good guy. I really want this guy to help my brother. My brother needs his friends hes too lonely just being at our house all the time. I hope something can happen to where john can be happy and not lonely. What really got to me when I was talking to him was that the fact I did'nt hate my brother anymore. For once I wanted to help my brother. He offered to let my brother live with him. Tonight I took a walk with my brother. It was a good chance to talk to him. I hardly ever talk to him. Nor do I hang out with him. It was nice but there were a lot of things he started to say but then he couldnt finnish telling me what he wanted to say. I wish I could talk to my brother all day and night just to find a way to stop this never-ending bullshit thats almost completely ruined his life.