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Once again it is past dinner time and James is still working at the station. It seems like it's all he does anymore. He works, goes home, collapses on the bed, then wakes up again in the morning for more work. He does it because he knows he has to. Somehow, after coming back to this stupid rock, he had acquired the responsibility of taking care of these people. He didn't regret it. In fact, he still held pride in it. But it wasn't the same as it used to be. Once upon a time, running this joint had been a breeze. He had been the boss, but he had also had a boss, and his team had been much larger than it was now. Now it seemed like it was all on him: assigning houses, assigning jobs, keeping everything stocked, keeping everyone safe. It was a huge responsibility, and lately he couldn't help but notice that he had been avoiding it.
Sure, he had been busy keeping things in order. Busier now than ever before. But he knew he was neglecting his people, and he felt guilty. So many new people had arrived and he had yet to greet half of them. Charlotte, Kate, Eko...even Jin! Jin, who had been one of his good friends for over three years, and he hadn't even stopped by to say 'Hello.' He had avoided Ben's party like the plague, not wanting to have to attend to any duties whilst there. From what Juliet had told him, he hadn't missed too much, and for that he was grateful. The way most parties turned out around here, that one had been decent.
He reaches up, pinching at his eyes. It didn't help that ever since the island had turned the thermostat up to 'boiling' he had started getting these terrible headaches. He sighs, dropping his hand down and looking at the stacks of papers on his desk. There are multiple forms that need to be filled out, data that needs to be logged, to do lists that needed to be made. He knows he can put it off until tomorrow. Knows he should put it off until tomorrow, but a part of him just can't help it. He puts pen back to paper and begins to write. It won't kill him, and it needs to get done eventually.