pissed, comme d'habitude
i'm pretty angry about a bunch of things right now. first off, i made a really stupid decision in working late nights with the balloon guy. I actually don't really mind working that late, it's just that the real perk of working that late is that you usually like the other person you're working with and you're friends and you get along. 100% of that equation has failed so far. I do not like him whatsoever, nor do I think he likes me very much, I don't see any way that we will ever be friends, and outside of mumbling and grunting at each other, which I suppose is the bare minimum qualifier of getting along, we don't talk to each other. it really sucks just because for some reason (ok, i do know the reason) I purposely decided to work with this kid, and it's just blowing up in my face. I asked my friend to switch shifts with me, but he said no way in hell, so I'm pretty much stuck right now. 18 more weeks of this. oh and plus, the person I work with says he wants to work during the summer, which really makes me rethink wanting to work during the summer because I don't see anyway I could work with him ever again, let alone LIVE with him during the summer. pas moi.
secondly, I don't know what I'm doing about this living situation for next year. So far I don't have a roommate, a place to live, or even a clue of who I want to live with. Everyone I talk to says I need to figure this out, but I don't want to think about it, I don't want to cause conflict, and I just all around don't want to deal with it right now. I wish I could live in lorillard with the boys that need a 5th roommate. I know I say I'm happy about it all the time, but I feel like I've boxed myself in with being friends with certain people and I can't branch out. I feel trapped and I feel like I have no options for next semester. Tonight doesn't help since in my one night off, everyone decides to stay in. I don't want to be selfish and I don't want to be ME ME ME, but I can go out one night a week, and I don't want to spend it eating pizza and watching movies. I do that the rest of the week.
Next week is my birthday. I'm not even that excited.
secondly, I don't know what I'm doing about this living situation for next year. So far I don't have a roommate, a place to live, or even a clue of who I want to live with. Everyone I talk to says I need to figure this out, but I don't want to think about it, I don't want to cause conflict, and I just all around don't want to deal with it right now. I wish I could live in lorillard with the boys that need a 5th roommate. I know I say I'm happy about it all the time, but I feel like I've boxed myself in with being friends with certain people and I can't branch out. I feel trapped and I feel like I have no options for next semester. Tonight doesn't help since in my one night off, everyone decides to stay in. I don't want to be selfish and I don't want to be ME ME ME, but I can go out one night a week, and I don't want to spend it eating pizza and watching movies. I do that the rest of the week.
Next week is my birthday. I'm not even that excited.