monday seems forever away
I hate being bored. I'll start with that, because it's at the front of my mind. I hate my head right now too. I've been thinking too much. Wondering too much. That's why I hate being bored. I've realized today that I still have a lot of issues. That being in this amazing relationship has just masked some of my problems that I thought were eliminated. I don't even know how to explain any of this because of my racing thoughts. I reread an entry from earlier this year about my head, imagination, and heart. I searched for it just so I could remind myself how stupid my head is sometimes, and that my heart knows the truth. With my mental history, sometimes it feels like my heart is fighting a losing battle. Absence does make the heart grow fonder, but it turns the head into an untrustworthy sonofabitch.
It's so hard realizing that you haven't recovered as well as you think you have, that there's still so much work to do. It's like taking a step backwards.
It's so hard realizing that you haven't recovered as well as you think you have, that there's still so much work to do. It's like taking a step backwards.