Just one of those days...
You know the kind of day I mean. Everything goes wrong and it's not particularly bad, you just feel tired and moody and frankly shitty. Yeah I'm having one of those days.
It was fucking freezing this morning and I SO did not want to get up, because last night I was really ill, being sick and having a bad stomach ache (I have this thing called IBS, I'm not gonna explain it here but look it up on wikipedia) and I was just in PAIN last night. The bus came late and I got stressed and then I realised thatI had Homestudy for period one so I iddn't even need to be in that early. So I got some work done in my free but I had a really bad headache (probably because I hadn't eaten as my stomach still hurt). My first lesson was okay, just not really thrilling. I had another free where I read some of my book, and listened to music as I ws feeling VERY stressed.
We got our yearly reports and basically I predicated MAJOR FAIL even though I've worked harder than ever this year. After lunch, and not eating because I was scared of getting my IBS again, I had drama which my teacher had a go at me for two reasons; Because I hadn't handed in my coursework and because I had to leave half way through to go to my singing lesson. My singing lesson was shit as well. We did sight singing and I couldn't concentrate (because of feeling ill and my shitty day) and She made me do GRADE 4 pieces (I'm currently working towards my Grade 5) and I COULDN'T EVEN DO THEM! I broke down in tears and she let me sing songs from musicals for the rest of the lesson to cheer me up.
I then had rhearsals after school for our schools RAG week which was hilarious as we get our guy mates to come and dance sexily for the school but one of my mates basically told me that he is self harming, which has made me really upset. Now I've come home to an empty house as my parents are out, I have a banging headache, I'm starving, and just remembered I have a 2500 word essay whoich I haven't started due in tomorrow. I also have a full day of lessons tomorrow, and I was going to get my haircut today but didn't because of my headache so now have to do that tomorrow before my mates birthday party, which will be attended by an ex-best friend who hates my guts for no apparent reason. Oh and I ordered a bra, it came today but it doesn't fit, yeah great I'm a cup size bigger but all my other bras are the same size and fit, and I wanted to wear it to the party but cant! GRRRR.
As you can probably tell I'm very irritated today for VERY MINOR LITTLE THINGS I'm just having a stressy day I suppose. I know there are people so much worse off than me and I feel so guilty. Well If you read that ARE YOU A FREAK?! LOL but I just needed to vent a little bit, I find it really helps!
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I may do another blog later talking about normal stuff like TV and films, but for now I will say TTFN as I really should do that boring essay of mine.
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It was fucking freezing this morning and I SO did not want to get up, because last night I was really ill, being sick and having a bad stomach ache (I have this thing called IBS, I'm not gonna explain it here but look it up on wikipedia) and I was just in PAIN last night. The bus came late and I got stressed and then I realised thatI had Homestudy for period one so I iddn't even need to be in that early. So I got some work done in my free but I had a really bad headache (probably because I hadn't eaten as my stomach still hurt). My first lesson was okay, just not really thrilling. I had another free where I read some of my book, and listened to music as I ws feeling VERY stressed.
We got our yearly reports and basically I predicated MAJOR FAIL even though I've worked harder than ever this year. After lunch, and not eating because I was scared of getting my IBS again, I had drama which my teacher had a go at me for two reasons; Because I hadn't handed in my coursework and because I had to leave half way through to go to my singing lesson. My singing lesson was shit as well. We did sight singing and I couldn't concentrate (because of feeling ill and my shitty day) and She made me do GRADE 4 pieces (I'm currently working towards my Grade 5) and I COULDN'T EVEN DO THEM! I broke down in tears and she let me sing songs from musicals for the rest of the lesson to cheer me up.
I then had rhearsals after school for our schools RAG week which was hilarious as we get our guy mates to come and dance sexily for the school but one of my mates basically told me that he is self harming, which has made me really upset. Now I've come home to an empty house as my parents are out, I have a banging headache, I'm starving, and just remembered I have a 2500 word essay whoich I haven't started due in tomorrow. I also have a full day of lessons tomorrow, and I was going to get my haircut today but didn't because of my headache so now have to do that tomorrow before my mates birthday party, which will be attended by an ex-best friend who hates my guts for no apparent reason. Oh and I ordered a bra, it came today but it doesn't fit, yeah great I'm a cup size bigger but all my other bras are the same size and fit, and I wanted to wear it to the party but cant! GRRRR.
As you can probably tell I'm very irritated today for VERY MINOR LITTLE THINGS I'm just having a stressy day I suppose. I know there are people so much worse off than me and I feel so guilty. Well If you read that ARE YOU A FREAK?! LOL but I just needed to vent a little bit, I find it really helps!
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I may do another blog later talking about normal stuff like TV and films, but for now I will say TTFN as I really should do that boring essay of mine.
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