restless awake
can't sleep. nightmares. incredibly vivid.
I'm sitting on a balcony. not my apartment. Behind me is an apartment, though. It's not welcoming at all. falling apart, neglected for years, decades? rust, dirt, blood, rot? who knows, i don't want to go inside. sometimes i have to. i see the degradation. tonight i don't. tonight, instead of the usual sickly forest, there only stretches an old beach and a giant sea of red as far as i can see, until it turns to black. beyond, somewhere beyond vision, a siren calls. loud and piercing, it not only paralyzes me with fear, but fills me with an unbearable desire to go to it, to go into the sea. I know that if I do go, it will not be alright. Nothing will be good beyond that sea. there is only evil. What wants me to go, what sets this siren? Behind me the apartment changes, it grows more and more disgusting. The smell overpowers me, makes my eyes water. I've got nowhere to go, and my fear paralyzes me. I wake up.
every time my eyes close, i see the sea. I need to go back to sleep, but when i do, i will dream again and hear the siren.
goodnight.
I'm sitting on a balcony. not my apartment. Behind me is an apartment, though. It's not welcoming at all. falling apart, neglected for years, decades? rust, dirt, blood, rot? who knows, i don't want to go inside. sometimes i have to. i see the degradation. tonight i don't. tonight, instead of the usual sickly forest, there only stretches an old beach and a giant sea of red as far as i can see, until it turns to black. beyond, somewhere beyond vision, a siren calls. loud and piercing, it not only paralyzes me with fear, but fills me with an unbearable desire to go to it, to go into the sea. I know that if I do go, it will not be alright. Nothing will be good beyond that sea. there is only evil. What wants me to go, what sets this siren? Behind me the apartment changes, it grows more and more disgusting. The smell overpowers me, makes my eyes water. I've got nowhere to go, and my fear paralyzes me. I wake up.
every time my eyes close, i see the sea. I need to go back to sleep, but when i do, i will dream again and hear the siren.
goodnight.