Comments | captainlogic: Just because

captainlogic

Just because

Feb 17, 2010 00:50

Because I'm boring and staid I am deciding to be different. Not like remarkably different you understand, the underlying meglomania, seething self-loathing and paranoia will continue to marinate beneath a light crust of egomaniacal brillance but I have decided to do something about the packaging.

( Operation Girl )

rl, oh god i need sleep, whine whine whine

Comments 4

cribbins February 17 2010, 07:13:55 UTC

1. You do not need to learn girl. Nobody needs to. You should only do it if you want to, not because you feel pressured into it.

2. YOU. ARE. PRETTY. Cease and desist with the self-loathing.

3. I know my weight-loss has been in no way as dramatic as yours but I totally get the fear of throwing away the big clothes. Saying that, there is something massively cathartic in looking at a smaller wardrobe. I really can't explain it.

4. Thhhpbt.

captainlogic February 19 2010, 22:52:17 UTC

Its not so much about being pretty-although that would be a welcome side effect and more...I don't know, being more polished I guess? Little more grown up, bit less of a total shambles.

Ive gotten rid of most of the too hugely huge clothes because I needed to, i needed to not let myself have that safety net, I suppose. THat if I still had those clothes it would be ok if I gained weight again, and so they had to go. And it was fairly horrific but theres some stuff that I bought pre-op and never worn because I cant go anywhere now but because Ive lost nearly 3 stone since then no longer fits. Im pretty certain that until I can have a tummy tuck Im going to loathe my figure, I cant help it, I cant see any rewards for want of a better word for all of my hardwork when Im stuck in the remains of the body i used ot have and thats all I can see and because I cant see past it, I think it must be soooo obvious to everyone else even if they say they dont notice. And because Im paranoid about it I dont have the confidence to wear the new ( ... )

cribbins February 19 2010, 23:11:40 UTC

I totally didn't notice anything about your stomach when I saw you the other week. It's glaringly obvious to you because it's something that you're paranoid about, and that's going to make everything seem twice as bad as it is. But other people won't notice. They won't. I swear. There is nothing really to notice.

Don't make me come over there and say nice things about you to your face. It'll be UNUSUAL and REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE FOR EVERYONE.

captainlogic February 19 2010, 23:24:06 UTC

Cruel and unusual punishment. Yup, sounds about right!