Autumnal Awesomeness
I've realized recently that I am really changing for the better as a person. Being a feminist Witch will do that to you. Its like I finally had my eyes opened to the way our society works and I found the Divine inside myself and really am getting closer to the Goddess. Its due to these two awesome things that I've finally made peace with my body, in more than one way. First of all, I no longer hate myself. I think my body is beautiful, and the Feminine Divine within my soul is something that I love and guard fiercely. If somebody wants to say hateful things about me, it might make me mad in the moment, but (finally!!) it no longer reflects on how I view myself in the long run. Its like I've slowly but surely developed my self-image based on my own thoughts and opinions, instead of trying to find myself in the praise of others (although everyone likes positive feedback. lol) What's wonderful about this is that not only am I confident, but I no longer feel the need to participate in grrrl hate, (talking shit about other womyn to make myself feel better. Everybody does it on one level or another, so its important to me to stop that sort of thing, and be happy/encouraging to other people.)
Whew. A new paragraph would be awesome about now:
The second thing about making peace with my body and finding my feminine self is that I realized that I'm not bi, I'm actually pansexual. If you don't know, basically it means that you're attracted to *all* genders, and tend to base that attraction more on how a person makes you feel emotionally, rather than there being any sort of gender preference. Gotta say, I love it. I know labels aren't necessary for everyone, but just for me personally, I really like finding my "orientation home." lol
Anyway, I didn't mean to make this so long winded. WOW. Well, as for real life stuff, I'm working as much as I can, usually taking 2-3 substitute jobs/week. I've applied for 3 different jobs with the school district, though, so hopefully one will work out. Other than that, I spend most of my nights studying Pagan books and doing different exercises. I'm hoping to get really familiar with astrology, Reiki (I'm at level 1. So far, it works really well. I fixed our computer with it, and I use it every day to help with my ME/CFS & Fibro. It's awesome,) tarot, and things like that.
So, yeah. Great stuff is happening. :)
Also, I meant to mention, I'll try really hard to answer comments and be around more often. And I wanted to ask if anybody wants to be penpals (old school snail mail letters!) Just let me know and I'll get yr address! Thanks, guys. <3
Whew. A new paragraph would be awesome about now:
The second thing about making peace with my body and finding my feminine self is that I realized that I'm not bi, I'm actually pansexual. If you don't know, basically it means that you're attracted to *all* genders, and tend to base that attraction more on how a person makes you feel emotionally, rather than there being any sort of gender preference. Gotta say, I love it. I know labels aren't necessary for everyone, but just for me personally, I really like finding my "orientation home." lol
Anyway, I didn't mean to make this so long winded. WOW. Well, as for real life stuff, I'm working as much as I can, usually taking 2-3 substitute jobs/week. I've applied for 3 different jobs with the school district, though, so hopefully one will work out. Other than that, I spend most of my nights studying Pagan books and doing different exercises. I'm hoping to get really familiar with astrology, Reiki (I'm at level 1. So far, it works really well. I fixed our computer with it, and I use it every day to help with my ME/CFS & Fibro. It's awesome,) tarot, and things like that.
So, yeah. Great stuff is happening. :)
Also, I meant to mention, I'll try really hard to answer comments and be around more often. And I wanted to ask if anybody wants to be penpals (old school snail mail letters!) Just let me know and I'll get yr address! Thanks, guys. <3