booboo
i leave in 4ish days. i leave saturday morning. we're packing my car til it can't breathe and are driving there. im not excited by the way.
yea i know STILL.
spent every possible second of my summer with rachel which is a pretty damn good way to end my last summer home. best, in fact.
i have not packed. i'm paiting boxes, nailing boxes together, making things, painting things, useless organizing things. spent ridiculous amounts of money at ikea just to return mroe than half the things i bought.i mihgt be the only person on earth whos not excited.
i wanna try and finish packing everything by thursday so i can do nothing but sleep until i leave. i have had 0 rest this summer. i never caught up on sleep form like theend of junior year. it has been dragging on and on but at least im averaging more than 4 hours of sleep now. i started going to the gym again due to the 10 pound gain of weight from over the summer due to too much eating, then no eating, then more eating ot make up for the ridiculousness of not eating, and a lot of not moving my body to even walk.
i dont feel like meeting people.
tonight was my last stand up in santa monica. i felt really sad afterwards, which deifnitely compelled me to want to stick with trying to start it up in berkeley. i have no clue whats going to happen.nonewhatsoever
i cant believe i stil havent packed. ive done nothing. ALL summer. didnt clean any old papers, was not active, did not keep in contact with anyone, did not waste my timeon the internet that much. just sat around. watched tv. spent lots of money.
i oculd really use a good reading of a small book while laying on my bed in the opposite direction than i sleep in, then taking a quick nap to the tune of the jan 04 mix then waking up the second before the sun sets, going to santa monica, eating at bravo cucina and ordering my insalte molte bene and dirnk ice water and nibble on bread with olive oil in the meantime, then ending my night with inviteably feeling sick wondering why i ate in the first place then getting some mango-lime sorbet in a sugar cone form ben and jerrys 1 small scoop please then driving home really tired and sleeping in the dark unlike normal because i always have some electronic appliance emitting light (tv, computer-s-, stereo light, you know..) with some song that reminds me of everything that has happened to me in the past couple months/years, probably off of a rachel mix or somehting.
or you know do the same except go to toppers and eat shrimp i know makes me sick but dont care because it tastes so good.
yea i know STILL.
spent every possible second of my summer with rachel which is a pretty damn good way to end my last summer home. best, in fact.
i have not packed. i'm paiting boxes, nailing boxes together, making things, painting things, useless organizing things. spent ridiculous amounts of money at ikea just to return mroe than half the things i bought.i mihgt be the only person on earth whos not excited.
i wanna try and finish packing everything by thursday so i can do nothing but sleep until i leave. i have had 0 rest this summer. i never caught up on sleep form like theend of junior year. it has been dragging on and on but at least im averaging more than 4 hours of sleep now. i started going to the gym again due to the 10 pound gain of weight from over the summer due to too much eating, then no eating, then more eating ot make up for the ridiculousness of not eating, and a lot of not moving my body to even walk.
i dont feel like meeting people.
tonight was my last stand up in santa monica. i felt really sad afterwards, which deifnitely compelled me to want to stick with trying to start it up in berkeley. i have no clue whats going to happen.nonewhatsoever
i cant believe i stil havent packed. ive done nothing. ALL summer. didnt clean any old papers, was not active, did not keep in contact with anyone, did not waste my timeon the internet that much. just sat around. watched tv. spent lots of money.
i oculd really use a good reading of a small book while laying on my bed in the opposite direction than i sleep in, then taking a quick nap to the tune of the jan 04 mix then waking up the second before the sun sets, going to santa monica, eating at bravo cucina and ordering my insalte molte bene and dirnk ice water and nibble on bread with olive oil in the meantime, then ending my night with inviteably feeling sick wondering why i ate in the first place then getting some mango-lime sorbet in a sugar cone form ben and jerrys 1 small scoop please then driving home really tired and sleeping in the dark unlike normal because i always have some electronic appliance emitting light (tv, computer-s-, stereo light, you know..) with some song that reminds me of everything that has happened to me in the past couple months/years, probably off of a rachel mix or somehting.
or you know do the same except go to toppers and eat shrimp i know makes me sick but dont care because it tastes so good.