i fuckin hate today
this whole week ive been so sad... and today it just hit me so hard. 1 year ago my best friends brother died and about 1 year and a week ago my aunt was burned alive on her yatt or however u spell it. about 1 year ago i was carrying my aunt down in her casket.. about 1 year ago i was sittin 3rd row while my best friend pushed his brother down into the ground. i fuckin hate this whole week. i read a card that someone gave me last year whenn all this happen... i wish she would call me. she is the only one that could make me feel better. and im pretty sure she has totally forgotten about me. atleast that what it seems like. i feel like shit and lonely so fuckin lonely...