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When I get really stressed out or really worked up before I goto bed I have a hard time falling asleep and when I do, I tend to have these really awful nightmares. They move really fast and I wake up frequently and basically feel like I haven't slept for the entire night. I figured I would try writing in a journal to calm myself down, because its what used to work.
I stop writing in a journal because of privacy issues, so whatever I say in this, well I basically can't really write out how I feel with out this been read the wrong way. So, maybe I can just write about what I've been up to.
I watched Michael Clayton last night, I thought it was really good and suspenseful. At times I'll admit I was lost, but it all came together at the end and I really liked it. I have On Demand now, and all of Alex's movies so I am going to try and make a more concerted effort to watch more movies. I thought about making a movie night once a week. I ran it past Sam and all I received was an unenthusiastic maybe.
I've gotten a lot better at cooking and rarely eat out, except on the weekends. I think I might have lost a little weight because of it too. It's nice to be on my own. It allows me to come home and relax for a while because I start dinner. Sometimes, I don't even start it until like 7:30 or 8. For breakfast I always eat 2 bowls of cereal, lunch I eat at work (whatever is on the menu) and dinner, I eat at home.
Alex isn't home a lot, and Sam only comes over maybe two days a week. I have a lot of alone time and I sure am enjoying it. I really need to be by myself considerably more then most people do. People, though, usually take this the wrong way and asking for alone time almost assuredly will lead to more hassle then its worth. But right now I feel like I'm getting enough.
I like to make lists, and I made a list of things to get done over the summer and only accomplished a few (a small few.) I am mentally compiling a list for Autumn, and I want to go Apple Picking and to a pumpkin farm. And while the leaves are in their full splendor I wanted to go camping and horse back riding. There are a bunch of close places, I'd go for even one night. Sam and Alex have both been pretty unreceptive to these ideas. Or too busy, I'm sure they probably will just get pushed to the side, per usual. I think it would be fun to do the Elroy-Sparta bike trail although I did that last summer. I also went to NYC last summer. I didn't do shit this summer.
Talk to you the next sleepless night,
Frank
I stop writing in a journal because of privacy issues, so whatever I say in this, well I basically can't really write out how I feel with out this been read the wrong way. So, maybe I can just write about what I've been up to.
I watched Michael Clayton last night, I thought it was really good and suspenseful. At times I'll admit I was lost, but it all came together at the end and I really liked it. I have On Demand now, and all of Alex's movies so I am going to try and make a more concerted effort to watch more movies. I thought about making a movie night once a week. I ran it past Sam and all I received was an unenthusiastic maybe.
I've gotten a lot better at cooking and rarely eat out, except on the weekends. I think I might have lost a little weight because of it too. It's nice to be on my own. It allows me to come home and relax for a while because I start dinner. Sometimes, I don't even start it until like 7:30 or 8. For breakfast I always eat 2 bowls of cereal, lunch I eat at work (whatever is on the menu) and dinner, I eat at home.
Alex isn't home a lot, and Sam only comes over maybe two days a week. I have a lot of alone time and I sure am enjoying it. I really need to be by myself considerably more then most people do. People, though, usually take this the wrong way and asking for alone time almost assuredly will lead to more hassle then its worth. But right now I feel like I'm getting enough.
I like to make lists, and I made a list of things to get done over the summer and only accomplished a few (a small few.) I am mentally compiling a list for Autumn, and I want to go Apple Picking and to a pumpkin farm. And while the leaves are in their full splendor I wanted to go camping and horse back riding. There are a bunch of close places, I'd go for even one night. Sam and Alex have both been pretty unreceptive to these ideas. Or too busy, I'm sure they probably will just get pushed to the side, per usual. I think it would be fun to do the Elroy-Sparta bike trail although I did that last summer. I also went to NYC last summer. I didn't do shit this summer.
Talk to you the next sleepless night,
Frank