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so its almost 6 in the morning and i have not yet slept, lying here at ashleys house listening to music that is too loud for me to sleep, i decided that i would make and entry.
now watch me make one...
entry!
i've decided that i think too much about things, things that dont matter much really. i guess i wouldnt notice the thinking if it was about something relavent, but i think about what i think about and i find nothing of great significance. sure there are some things that make me ponder, and in the end really are thoughtful things to be thinking, and the thoughts would better my "situation" (if you want to cal it that) if i would follow through with the thinking, but i always start thinking about something unimportant before i realize what a good thought i just threw away.
but then i start thinking about relavence, and what really is the "important stuff". are my thoughts of school and my future more important than my thoughts of here and now? i mean, we're not garunteed a fuure, we could AlL die tomorrow, so why do we worry about it so much? wouldn't it be better to think about life as it is now, and live for the day, instead of working to better a tomorrow that may never come?
the suns rising now, its a new day again. how will i waste this day i wonder? or will it be wasted at all? i feel like i have so may things that i have to do but they never get done, and i never attempt to get them done, cause when i try, theres nothing to do. i'd like to accomplish something today. that would be good. something worth accomplishing. today may be the day i change my life.
and now ashley awakes so i must go.
now watch me make one...
entry!
i've decided that i think too much about things, things that dont matter much really. i guess i wouldnt notice the thinking if it was about something relavent, but i think about what i think about and i find nothing of great significance. sure there are some things that make me ponder, and in the end really are thoughtful things to be thinking, and the thoughts would better my "situation" (if you want to cal it that) if i would follow through with the thinking, but i always start thinking about something unimportant before i realize what a good thought i just threw away.
but then i start thinking about relavence, and what really is the "important stuff". are my thoughts of school and my future more important than my thoughts of here and now? i mean, we're not garunteed a fuure, we could AlL die tomorrow, so why do we worry about it so much? wouldn't it be better to think about life as it is now, and live for the day, instead of working to better a tomorrow that may never come?
the suns rising now, its a new day again. how will i waste this day i wonder? or will it be wasted at all? i feel like i have so may things that i have to do but they never get done, and i never attempt to get them done, cause when i try, theres nothing to do. i'd like to accomplish something today. that would be good. something worth accomplishing. today may be the day i change my life.
and now ashley awakes so i must go.