I find myself Scared of Tomorrow.
I'm scared everyday of what the next day will bring. I'm afraid of what will happen in my relationship, my friendships, my family, just with my life in general. I'm so scared that it nearly cripples my ability to live in today. I also have found myself in a deep pit of emotion.
I'm constantly zoning out and falling into my thoughts. I find myself overcome with sadness and anger over nothing. I worry about everyone around me when in reality I need to take myself into consideration.
I've done some bad things in my past. Some things I'm really not proud of.
I've found myself considering doing some of those things again here lately. Not because I want to do them, to be that person again. But because I know how they make me feel and because I want that feeling. I want that power. I want that control of my life. I want to know the answers to questions before they are even thought. I want to be in charge in my life. I fear failure and I fear not being good enough. I just want things to get better and put an end to all of my questions and doubts. Wish me luck.
I'm constantly zoning out and falling into my thoughts. I find myself overcome with sadness and anger over nothing. I worry about everyone around me when in reality I need to take myself into consideration.
I've done some bad things in my past. Some things I'm really not proud of.
I've found myself considering doing some of those things again here lately. Not because I want to do them, to be that person again. But because I know how they make me feel and because I want that feeling. I want that power. I want that control of my life. I want to know the answers to questions before they are even thought. I want to be in charge in my life. I fear failure and I fear not being good enough. I just want things to get better and put an end to all of my questions and doubts. Wish me luck.