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i'm falling apart. i dont know what happened to the person i was last year (shool wise). i did all of my homework and i was never stressed out because i always just sat down and got it done. this year is completly different. i feel like i'm constantly loosing my mind. i keep leaving my stuff at school that i need for that night's hw, which wouldn't be that big of a deal except for the fact that i do it in the classes i am already behind in!! i still havn't finished my humanitas paper that was due a week ago and i told mr. cusin today that i wasn't going to be at school tomarrow and why and he was really understanding and caring until i told him i didn't have my paper done. he made a oohhhhh thats not good noise and just stared at me. how awful.
i also found out yesterday that i am missing three days of school next week because i am leaving early on my trip. now i know you are thinking "what the hell is she complaining about, i want to miss three days of school to get out of town!!!!!" but it just so happens that the three days i'm missing are the last three days of the marking period. and you know what teachers do on the last couple of days of the marking period.......gives lots of tests and essays. so far i have to take a chem test on tuesday that is scheduled for friday and i have to turn in the final draft of an english essay on tuesday, which is also due on friday. i am positive i will have some huge test in calculus because that is just what ms. ferrara loves to do.
i have no idea how i am going to get a B in all my classes, which is what i need for my mom and myself to be happy. if i don't get at least Bs, she will take it as i didn't do my work and i need more restrictions. which means getting a curfew and lots of other annoying things.
i'm also really stressed because people think that i'm either really uncommitted to playing soccer or that i'm not even playing. the reality is that i couldn't go for the past two weeks because of my neck and because of unexpected events. i talked to dr. j today and i think he understands but you never really know with him. he also told me that i should make it known to my teammates that i am commited to the team and inform them why i havn't been present. but i really dont want to make an announcement to the team about my attendance, i dont think that's necessary and i dont think people really want to know.....on the other hand, as a leader on the team (being a senior thats kinda expected) i feel obligated to set a good example and by not being there i'm not really doing that. ahhh
woah this turned into a really long one.....i guess i had more to say than i thought haha
i also found out yesterday that i am missing three days of school next week because i am leaving early on my trip. now i know you are thinking "what the hell is she complaining about, i want to miss three days of school to get out of town!!!!!" but it just so happens that the three days i'm missing are the last three days of the marking period. and you know what teachers do on the last couple of days of the marking period.......gives lots of tests and essays. so far i have to take a chem test on tuesday that is scheduled for friday and i have to turn in the final draft of an english essay on tuesday, which is also due on friday. i am positive i will have some huge test in calculus because that is just what ms. ferrara loves to do.
i have no idea how i am going to get a B in all my classes, which is what i need for my mom and myself to be happy. if i don't get at least Bs, she will take it as i didn't do my work and i need more restrictions. which means getting a curfew and lots of other annoying things.
i'm also really stressed because people think that i'm either really uncommitted to playing soccer or that i'm not even playing. the reality is that i couldn't go for the past two weeks because of my neck and because of unexpected events. i talked to dr. j today and i think he understands but you never really know with him. he also told me that i should make it known to my teammates that i am commited to the team and inform them why i havn't been present. but i really dont want to make an announcement to the team about my attendance, i dont think that's necessary and i dont think people really want to know.....on the other hand, as a leader on the team (being a senior thats kinda expected) i feel obligated to set a good example and by not being there i'm not really doing that. ahhh
woah this turned into a really long one.....i guess i had more to say than i thought haha